What was the zenger trial apush

So i've thought about two powers from a campaign i had with my friands that involved one word being a superpower.
And two kinda stuck to me, it was my and another friends power respectivaly called, Ignore and Source.
Here is a generall overview of what they can do
Source: The user can summon any sort object if they know who created it or how it's made.
Example: the user can summon gold through knowing that it is created through the collision of neutron stars.
Example 2: user can summon a plane through knowing that the Wright brothers created the first plane.
Weakness: the user can't summon anything they don't know who created it or what creates it. Additionally the user loses stamina with every object summoned.
Ignore: The user can willfully ignore the laws of physics and motion, allowing them to things a regular person wouldn't be able to do.
Example: the user can ignore the laws of gravity in order to float to the sky.
Example 2: the user can make attacks bounce off of him through making the attacks lose friction and inertia.
Weakness: the user can only affect themself and other things that are close to them, and overuse causes extreme headaches.

What's the most absurd thing you've ever seen someone do to get attention?

Ok so you know the whole movie coralline and stuff I have so many theories like I need more but like ok see this what if Wybie was the person who helped the other mother like dude he did give her the doll at the beginning like what if he like was the one who is helping the other mother? I need y’all’s help. Is wybie helping the other mother…?

What's the most meaningful thing you've ever written and why did you write it?

when i was kid i love bendy it was fun to watch it i discovered the creepy DVD it said in a 60 minute movie the DVD smelled like a blood i insert it in Xbox 360 the DVD menu was empty it had the scary version of the bendy with black eyes with the blue pupils only 6 options was PLAY ALL SPECIAL FEATURES EPISODES AUDIO SET UP VIDEO UP and THX MEDIA then click PLAY ALL button it started with bendy theme song it was normal it started with bendy playing with lurker but suddenly bendy annoyed by the lurker and killed lurker with a shotgun the Alice came and said
Alice:WHAT DID YOU DO
bendy:i killed lurker because he was too annoying
Boris:how dare kill the lurker that's it we are having the war
then Boris got out the machine gun and Alice got out a ak 47 Alice shot bendy on the eyes
bendy:that ones so hurts i will shoot you
bendy got out a giant long shotgun and shot Boris on the legs
Boris:OW I WILL EXPLODE THE HOUSE
Boris gets the flying car and destroys the house
Alice:that's it i will shoot Boris on the heart
Boris:OW THAT ONES REALLY HURTS I WILL SHOOT THE SEARCHERS'S HOUSE
Boris got out the machine gun and shoot at searchers's house
the projectionist:WHAT DID THEY DO!!! WE WILL EXPLODE THE BOMB!!!!
Alice:KILLED MY HONEY!!! YOU WILL DIE!!!!
Alice strangles projectionist
porter:take that you bitch
porter goes to Edgar's house and blows up the Edgar's house
Sam:you killed Edgar! you are also going to the die shit!!!!!
Henry: no bendy!
nuclear bomb aims at Henry
nuclear bomb explodes it and burns the entire city the corpses have been turned into the skeletons and the Disney animation studio was gone Henry and Sam was died too survivor of the city was searchers
i destroyed the DVD the end

Ok Mr. Havarinen, I've been playing your games for weeks straight now. I was cool with dealing with all the SHIT you've put me through, like prison guards' dangling cocks, a brainiac nonce, losing all my limbs, trying to patch up wounds with dirty TP and dying of infection, child soldiers addicted to heroine, human hydras, Eldritch abomination ancient Gods, Le FUCKING Garde, CROW MAULER, CHAMBARA THE TORMENTED ONE, THAT CREEPY ASS HARVESTMAN, T-REXES, and the like. But then you had the GALL to throw FECAL HOUNDS at me? FECAL HOUNDS, are you serious? I mean, it's not just the regular ass hounds I had to deal with, no no no, these are of the FECAL variety. And why there's always two of them ? Could we say that's a FECAL PACK? FECAL HOUNDS. There's nothing more vile and disgusting that the human brain was ever capable of conceiving. And their design? It's like an aborted human fœtus eating shit. Then you notice that the FECAL HOUNDS are in a backalley and stop to think about their shape, and context, and it downs on you that FECAL HOUNDS are probably children that were just playing ball or hide and seek, who were transformed into said FECAL HOUNDS by an asshole depraved moon god.
This FECAL HOUND shit is now getting under my skin. My SO tells me "baby, stop talking about FECAL HOUNDS", and I'm like "I CANT GODDAMIT, IT'S FECAL HOUNDS". I think I'm going crazy, I kinda find them cute now and pity the poor guys. Then, I remember they are FECAL HOUNDS, and I would torch them down or at least run the fuck away if I ever had to deal with motherfucking FECAL HOUNDS in real life.
I even started calling some people FECAL HOUNDS. There are children in my neighborhood that play ball in the back alley all day long and I can hear them shouting during work and can't concentrate. Guess what, now I'm calling them FECAL HOUNDS, because FECAL HOUND is the perfect metaphor for these shitty rascals downstairs. It led me to think that you also got your own FECAL HOUND-like children over there in the back alleys of where you live and decided to twistedly immortalize them in your game.
I hate you and love you, Miro Havarinen, for creating FECAL HOUNDS. It's like a 12-year old who just learned biology words was asked to come up with a disgusting thing. They would say FECAL HOUND, you bet on it. The simplicity, the crudeness, the outrage... It's so revolting, and at the same time so clever, so witty, so brilliant. For better or for worse, you seared FECAL HOUNDS into my brain, and now they are as part of my cultural context as megaman or mario, perhaps even more.
PS: we need FECAL HOUND plushies.

When we started dating we had a solid sex life and were helllla active. we are 9 months in and i have noticed a significant decline in her interest. There have been many things that could be the reason that we have talked about before such as antidepressants and mental health issues. The only thing is lately i have found her making excuses every time im trying to initiate or seem interested.
She gets very defensive with the excuses (she has a trauma based lying issue) and it is hard. but she always ends up saying she “just doesn’t want to” but will not tell me specifically why. Yes i know it could be the feeling just isnt there because of the antidepressant’s or mental health issues but i feel like there is more too it.
Also lots of times when we are just starting to make moves on each other she will stop altogether out of nowhere saying her stomach is upset. im not upset at her for making the excuse cuz i know she had a trauma based lying issue (she is working on it) and it could be hard for her to turn me down but i wish she would be more open and just tell me whats up. She also used to text me when shes in the mood when we were apart and send dirty texts but that has stopped a while ago say maybe a few months. she rarely seems in the mood and it seems forced sometimes when she initiates something cuz normally there is no visible signs that she is interested in sex until its all at once and we start quick with little to no foreplay.
Idk if im overthinking but this is what happened tonite. she randomly started teasing me and seemed really into it and when we got home we had amazing sex. I wont lie i didnt last too long as it had been built up for hours and we hadnt in like a week so i figured she would be more than intrested in round two but to my surprise she came back from the bathroom and seemed visibly upset. she told me she just didn’t want to again and was nervous to tell me because she thought i would get upset. which made sense cuz that does happen because she always makes excuses for why she loses interest but i always feel like there is more that she is not telling me so i overthink it and get upset. but i just feel like there is something more to it that she is not telling me . i just have a gut feeling.
Im just really confused to what the true reason is. Any theory’s would be appreciated!
TLDR
Girlfriend stopped showing as much interest in sex and always makes excuses. she says she is just not in the mood most times when we get past the excuses but it still seems like she isn’t telling me whats really going on.

the thing about abusive relationships is you’re made to depend on them and when they’re gone you don’t know what to do. You’ve lost your trust for yourself. I want myself back so bad man. I wanna be who I was before. I wanna be happy again. I wasn’t fully happy then but I was better. Now I can’t stop seeking someone to be what she was for me, someone to make decisions for me and tell me what’s right and what’s wrong

If you could go on a road trip with any celebrity, who would it be and why?

In Exodus 20:3 it says,

"You shall have no other gods before me. "

This doesn't affirm that there are no other gods, but that no other gods should be worshiped before Him.
The context given as to why they shouldn't have any God before them is Exodus 20:2

" I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery. "

The reason the God of the Jews gave as to why they should only worship Him in Exodus 20:4-6 was:

" You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in the heavens above, on the earth below, or in the waters beneath. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on their children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing loving devotion to a thousand generations of those who love Me and keep My commandments. "

The God that sits above all, that is both the creator and created, the eternal God, would have no need to be Jealous, for He knows what will come, He is present in all of us, which makes me wonder why Jesus said this to the Jews who disputed His claim in John 8:44:

You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies

He claimed that they could not be doing the work of the one true God, as they desired to 'kill him' in John 8:39-41:

“Abraham is our father,” they answered.
“If you were Abraham’s children,” said Jesus, “then you would[c] do what Abraham did. As it is, you are looking for a way to kill me, a man who has told you the truth that I heard from God. Abraham did not do such things. You are doing the works of your own father.”
“We are not illegitimate children,” they protested. “The only Father we have is God himself.”

Jesus went on to explain in John 8:42 that:

“If God were your Father, you would love me, for I have come here from God. I have not come on my own; God sent me.

The Jews tried to accuse Jesus of being a Samaritan and Demon-possessed in John 8:48-53, however they misunderstood what Jesus was saying, that the soul cannot die, only the flesh can die.

The Jews answered him, “Aren’t we right in saying that you are a Samaritan and demon-possessed?”
“I am not possessed by a demon,” said Jesus, “but I honor my Father and you dishonor me. I am not seeking glory for myself; but there is one who seeks it, and he is the judge. Very truly I tell you, whoever obeys my word will never see death.”

Jesus explains that God, the highest glorifies Him, that he has come from the divine realm and knows Him, and that Abraham is also up there and is 'glad', in John 8:54-56:

Jesus replied, “If I glorify myself, my glory means nothing. My Father, whom you claim as your God, is the one who glorifies me. Though you do not know him, I know him. If I said I did not, I would be a liar like you, but I do know him and obey his word. Your father Abraham rejoiced at the thought of seeing my day; he saw it and was glad.”

Then just before he was attacked for his claim he said in John 8:58-59:

“Very truly I tell you,” Jesus answered, “before Abraham was born, I am!”

What he was saying is that the Divine Realm, Heaven, exists outside of time and space, that the eternal realm is different than this finite and death filled realm. The soul is different than the body.
He further explained at the beginning of John 2:16-20 that the body is simply the Temple for the soul after interacting with the money changers in the man made temple of God.

To those who sold doves he said, “Get these out of here! Stop turning my Father’s house into a market!”His disciples remembered that it is written: “Zeal for your house will consume me.”[c]
The Jews then responded to him, “What sign can you show us to prove your authority to do all this?”
Jesus answered them, “Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days.”
They replied, “It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?” But the temple he had spoken of was his body.

From these interctions it makes sense that Jesus came to save our souls, not our bodies. The bodies are the temples, they are important in that they're the houses for the souls. But the Jews did not understand this and believe that as the body dies, so to does the soul, as they mentioned with Abraham. Though what it also raises is why would a God who created all life on Earth, who would love us all equally, who understands that the Souls are the things created in the image of God as in Genesis 26, for God is eternal, yet the Temple is impermanent.

Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,[a] and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

Why would a God who sits beyond time and space, who is eternal, who is both creator and created, who created man in His image be a Jealous God?
We know that there are Angels, and that some of the Angels 'fell' from God's Grace. The word Angel comes from the Greek word Messenger. So the Angels, as I understand it are simply messengers of the highest God, they were also created, imbued with knowledge. The fallen Angels who lived on this Earth before the flood of Noah, sound very much like the Pagan gods, that of Ancient Egypt, of Ancient Rome, of Ancient Greece, of Ancient India, of Ancient Mesopotamia.
These little 'g' gods, or Angels, who ruled over the inhabitants of Earth do seem likely to have existed. And from what it seems, although all these religions have the understanding of a One True Creator. In Hinduism they call Him Brahman, the Buddha (who understood Vedic scripture) called him 'House Builder', the one who build the temple, the Jews call Him YHWH, The Christian's call Him God, the Muslim's call Him Allah, etc. All of these religions have the conception of a one true God, but it doesn't mean that there aren't lesser gods that were created by the one true god who are 'competing' with each other'.
Now if we go back to the original point of the God of the Jews,
The Jews were rescued out of slavery and chosen by a single 'god', the Creator God would have no favourites on Earth as we are all a part of His infinity.
So the fact that the God of the Jews rescued only them out of Egypt, and not any of the other Egyptian slaves (they all got left behind):
" I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery. "
Then this god proclaimed not that there weren't other gods, but that the Jews should have no other god before him.
And the reason for doing this is that, "I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God..." just doesn't make sense if considering an immortal being. We know that humans have been tricked by dieties in the past, eve was tricked into eaten from the Tree of Knowledge, gaining self awareness, or awareness of her nakedness in the process, and subsequently disconnecting herself from God.
And we know that Satan tried to test Jesus when he wandered in the desert for 40 days and 40 nights.
So couldn't the burning bush be just as likely to have been lesser god, just like the snake who deceived Eve in the Garden of Eden?
There are most definitely lesser gods, all the ancient myths and religions refer to these lesser gods living among humans, yet for the last 6,000 years we've been separated from them and given the opportunity to develop on our own.
If these lesser gods, or fallen angels as in Genesis 6:4 had slept with the Daughters of Man, the Mortal 'Temples'.

The Nephilim were on the earth in those days—and also afterward—when the sons of God went to the daughters of humans and had children by them. They were the heroes of old, men of renown.

Then the myths being described in the Ancient Greek Epics such as Homers Odessy, The Battle of Troy, as well as the lesser gods of Hindu and other traditions may in fact be created beings, like us, but whom were meant to guide us, or perhaps just to watch over us.
If we can accept that our soul is the goal, that the image of God is our eternal soul, and the aim of God is for us to develop into the likeness of God, to learn, to be kind, to be loving to others. Then the temples he created for us, our bodies, are vessels in which we can develop.
Those Fallen Angels, or gods, simply disobeyed God for what ever selfish reason, and decided to interfere with the 'plan', this is the issue with 'Free Will', or 'Self-awareness'. It is from an awareness of self, and the choice between selfish of selfless behaviors that we assess whether a behaviour is 'Good', or 'Evil'. At the most basic level, to be 'Good' is to be selfless, to focus on ourselves insofar as it will at a later stage help others, to be 'Evil' is to be selfish, to do everything to satisfy our own desires.
Lucifer whom is considered the most 'Evil' based on his falling away from God committed the Sin of Pride, selfishly thinking that he had more foresight on how humans should behave than 'God' the infinite and eternal creator.
It is this selfishness that makes me wonder whether the 'Jealous' God, is a god that is still selfishly trying to prove themselves to the Eternal Creator God, and asks of the group of people that he saved from slavery to worship him before all other gods. In the hope that at the end of days, when Prophecy is fulfilled and the Messiah comes again, that it will either be a Messiah that will let the Jews rule the world, or will show the world that we are all one, and that God loves us all and has purposefully separated us by language, and given us different cultures, gods, and religions. Knowing that all paths lead to God, and showing that the diversity of understandings from all the races of the world, help paint a more full picture of an unknowable eternal God.
The best way to give a description of why God will do this can be expressed by the Parable of the blind men and an elephant.
We do not have the ability to 'See', God, so have to use our other faculties, such as intellect, understanding, love, and service to others, to develop our understanding of an Eternal and All-Loving being.
The Parable goes:

A group of blind men heard that a strange animal, called an elephant, had been brought to the town, but none of them were aware of its shape and form. Out of curiosity, they said: "We must inspect and know it by touch, of which we are capable". So, they sought it out, and when they found it they groped about it. The first person, whose hand landed on the trunk, said, "This being is like a thick snake". For another one whose hand reached its ear, it seemed like a kind of fan. As for another person, whose hand was upon its leg, said, the elephant is a pillar like a tree-trunk. The blind man who placed his hand upon its side said the elephant, "is a wall". Another who felt its tail, described it as a rope. The last felt its tusk, stating the elephant is that which is hard, smooth and like a spear.

By the time revelations has been fulfilled, humanity should have a better understanding of who God is, and if the prophecy is true, God will live among us, not just in human form. Distinguished by the 'Throne of God', and the 'Lamb of God' in Revelations 22:1-5:

Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb 2 down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. 3 No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him. 4 They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. 5 There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever.

im just now recovering from years of almost constantly being depressed and suicidal everyday, i moved out of an abusive house, i got more confident, and now i fucked it all up and i feel lost and scared.
i first tried it from my moms boyfriend, then i ended up stealing one from where i work. after 2 days i felt horrible and guilty both for vaping and stealing from where i and my mom work, shes the supervisor so i gave her the vape and 20 dollars to cover it. but it was harder to stop than i thought, next day i had a panic attack i wanted to smoke so bad.
im so back and forth, i want to be "pure" again but i want to get the happiness from the vape again. and i feel so dirty and unlovable because i got addicted to nicotine/vape. i feel like human trash, i feel bad that im even having to recover and im gonna feel bad if i dive back into it.
i feel like i should just separate myself from my friends and give them gifts and whatever they want as an apology for being what i am. i dont even feel comfortable venting or talking about it to them because i feel so trashy about smoking, especially at a young age, i can feel the judgement, im scared nobody will like me anymore and im not strong enough to change it.

For context I used to be obese. I had high cholesterol as a teen to early adulthood. At my biggest my doctor wanted me to be put on medication. I then began a restrictive "clean" diet for a year. Overtime I began developing disordered habits such as excessive body checking, comparing myself with others (physically and food wise), and became fearful over certain foods.
I lost a significant amount of weight. Everyone was congratulating me, asking how I did it. My mom took on the habit of telling me how thin I was every morning. The first thing people would point out was my weight. My family members would urge me to get 8on the scale to see how much I weighed. I know it was all in good faith but in the end it further fed into my insecurities.
When I tried hinting to a loved one that I still felt obese, they said is was normal because I lost so much so fast. I assumed my body dsymorphia was normal.
When I was deep into my diet, I was in denial of what I was struggling with. I was scared of being labeled as someone with an ED. I didn't wanna be seen as a fraud or someone who lost weight illegitimately. I'm scared of the stigma. I've lost half my body weight now.
I don't know how to reach out without the fear of being judged. I don't want to disgust others. I don't want others to be vigilant on my eating or food choices after telling them I have an ED. I don't want unsolicited advice. I don't want to be known as the ED girl. I don't want to be seen as a fraud. Worst of all, I don't want to come forward just for loved ones not knowing how to help.
I'm scared but I need support so bad. I don't want to be seen different.

What is the most meaningful accomplishment you have ever achieved and why was it so important to you?

long post
first, a backstory on how my relationship with my bf came to be (fake names)
I met my boyfriend, Justin at my cousin Ruby’s birthday party. Justin is childhood friends with Ruby and Ruby’s husband. Justin and I never got each others number or anything that night, but Ruby posted something and tagged everyone there and from process of elimination, he found me, considering I was the only one without a pfp. We started messaging, he wanted to hang out with me and I didn’t at the time and it was a lot of back and forth. I had just got out of a long term relationship so I was being complicated, but even before we saw each other again, we were both messy and toxic with each other. I don’t know how or why, but it was just red flags all around. Even with all that, I knew I wanted him some way somehow. He then became my “sneaky link”, but that’s after the main part of this story. Before we met again and he became that, I noticed he added one of my cousins that was also at the party (let’s call her Bianca). I see her as a sister so one day, her and I were on the phone and I asked her about him following her and if he messaged her or anything. She said no, but she thought he was cute so she added him back. I told her him and I are talking and I know it kind of surprised her but that’s all that was said.
A few days after, him and I got into an argument and it was bad. About what? Who knows. Later on that night, Bianca sent me screenshots that he liked all her selfie posts and story selfies. I was hurt, but for what? Justin and I really were nothing. We had no title and I hadn’t physically seen him since the party and at this point, it’s been 2/3 weeks. I did confront him about it and we had this whole talk and he removed her which in turn made her remove him, end of story.
This was nearly 2 years ago. My boyfriend and I are about to celebrate our 1 year anniversary this month. We were extremely problematic and petty at the beginning, obviously, but we’ve built trust and a foundation and I know this is who I want to be with. We are not perfect, but we are not the same people we were in the beginning and we often laugh about it. We are both secure with each other.
The thing is, Bianca doesn’t approve of him or our relationship. She has never told me, but it is painfully obvious. Not going to lie, I still feel some SLIGHT hurt from when that happened, towards Justin AND Bianca, because she “hearted” those likes he sent to her story selfies and it’s like he made some pass at my sister, but I see it as I am still choosing to be with him and it’s not going to work out if I hold on to it, so I don’t let that hurt phase me. I expect and want everyone to be amicable and move on. I don’t bring him up to Bianca but at family parties, my mom has brought him up a couple of times and Bianca gives major side eye and avoids any conversation involving him. Ruby even had a baby shower a month into my relationship and all of my family went, including Justin. It was where her party was when I met him, so it felt full circle. I was sitting with Bianca when I first got there and Justin showed up late because of work and once she saw him, she moved and didn’t talk to us at all.
I am not scared of confrontation but I just don’t know how to without it becoming a bigger thing. I haven’t even told Justin this feeling I’m getting from Bianca and how she sees him and but I need this to be settled and for this to be buried already. I eventually want to start living with Justin and want to include Bianca in things I do and invite her to things but also have my boyfriend there as well, but I’m not sure how to go about it. How do I approach asking Bianca what her actual deal is? How do I bring it up to my boyfriend?
TL;DR: My cousin doesn’t like my boyfriend because he liked her posts while he first started talking to me, making it awkward and uncomfortable when we’re all in the same place and I don’t know what to do to make it not weird.

I am a white female, 5’3 and 165 lbs and 26 years old. I don’t smoke, I drink maybe once a month if that.
Over the past 2 months I have been experiencing persistent back pain and numbness. It began in the center of my back, and felt almost like someone had punched me in my spine. I thought it was because if my posture during work (I work from home on a laptop and often would sit in bed and work), but standing while working did not fix it and neither did sitting at a desk. I also now have persistent numbness along the left side of my back, between my shoulder blade area and spine (closer to the spine) and the numbness went from intermittent to now almost constant. Nothing I do has helped relieve it and it’s driving me actually crazy. I tried to see a neurologist about it, but no one has any opening for months and I don’t know what to do because I can’t keep on feeling like this. I am miserable and I have no idea what could be causing this or what steps to take to get help/ relief.

Tbh, I am not sure where to begin.. sorry for the long post
I (F34) am currently a graduate student earning graduate degree. So my income isn't as great as my SO (M35). My SO income is about 2.5 fold of what mine is and we are comfortable. We own a three unit house, rent two of them out, while we stay in one of the unit. Each unit is about 1000 sqft, with a large fenced in backyard.
We have quite a few animals (cats and dogs). My SO is in charge of the dogs while I am in charge of taking care of the cats. Not sure if it's relevant.
We have been together for 9 years and married for 6. We have had plenty of arguments of my SO not doing their fair share of chores because of their inherited diseases (EDS which cause osteoarthritis because they had to go through two knee surgery and one shoulder surgery) as we grew older it gets harder for my SO to move so, after MANY MANY arguments we decided on hiring cleaning services. It started this year.
In the meantime, while the chores responsibilities are kind of out of the way, I am getting tired of requesting my SO to put things back where they got it from. These happened a few times. My SO would often NOT SEE something, then ASK where it is before even searching for it. They they would, pretend to SEARCH for it while taking everything out (just looked) and decided the needed items weren't there. I am getting very fedup of this behavior. I feel like this is a child-like behavior that should be corrected. But alas, my SO is an adult and you can't change an adult.
Then it dawned me :

1. I have been doing the groceries. My SO does grocery too but only when they needed something for themselves (for example, chocolate milk), then will they go to the store.
   
   1. I cook 2-3 times a week, I cook a big batch and store it. My SO is in charge of cleaning. However, my SO would leave the cleaning to the very last minute when we have the sink so full that we can not put anything in for my SO to load the dishwasher. I have noted multiple times I do not like the sink to be dirty. I always want it cleaned, but of course it falls to deaf ears.
2. I am in charge to look for the cleaning services, I am the person in charge searching for ppl to mow the lawn, I was in charge of finding handyman to fix the problems our tenants are having. Sometimes I am in charge of finding someone for snow removal.
   
3. I am in charge of cleaning the cat litter, while my SO is in charge of clearing the backyard with dog poops. My SO typically lets the dogs out twice a day about 5 min each time. At the beginning, my SO NEVER cleaned the backyard of the dog poop because "it nourishes" the grass. (And also whenever they want to clean the back yard they are in a lot of pain from the osteoarthritis). After multiple arguments (maybe about 2 years every other month) they started to clean more often. Maybe 1-2 times a month now.
   
4. My SO is in charge of filling up water for the animals (only filling), hardly washing it until I point it out or I did it myself. Then my SO would be "I was about to clean it today".
   
5. My SO is also in charge of taking out the trash weekly. Which is one thing they do amazingly!
   
6. I deal with the finances, I make sure all bills are paid on time, credit card paid off monthly. We are definitely living comfortably.
   
7. I am in charge of dealing with the tenants so I requested my SO to be in charge of looking for handyman or contractors to fix up the house... But recently it proves to be a failure. There was a leak in the house and I asked my SO to make a call to the person who did our roof. Typically when I request, I do expect it to get done within 24 hours.... After a few days my SO made that call, but no one answered. My SO stopped trying........ Didn't even bother following up anymore. I requested my SO to call again... After almost a week... This is not a one time incident. Everytime a contractor or handyman did not reply my SO completely shuts down and does not want to follow up. When I asked why dont they follow up, I was met with "They didn't answer my phone the last time I called". I don't think following up once a day was too bad, considering we paid $20k for the roof to get it fix couple years back. Anyway, they came once and said needed a ladder, but never told us when they would come back. That was 5 days ago... I will be making the call to the contractor tomorrow because I feel like this is what needed to be done personally.
   

So my question is am I overreacting for my SO lack of wanting to search for stuff and then refusing to put away stuff the way my SO took it out? Not following up with stuff they should be following up, like contractors? I often tell my SO "you never do things" but that isn't true (that is one problem statement I have to fix). My SO does some stuff, but it is often not enough, or things are done HALFWAY... But they would always reply "I do stuff you don't acknowledge, you only acknowledge stuff when I don't do it"
Am I overreacting for wanting to get out of this relationship? I don't even want kids with this person considering they have many health problems not to mention all these personalities crash we have here. I personally think if they cannot act like a adequate adult they should not have kids.
I feel so sick just thinking about this problem. I am so sick with living with someone who just doesn't care. I tried so hard to let things go, and tell myself this is who my SO is and there is no use trying to change a person, especially someone who's growing older and grumpier by the year (due to their pain I assumed). What do I do?? Should I recommend couples therapy? What good would that do, if my SO level of cleanliness/tidiness vs mine are so different? I let go while letting my SO tendencies run free?

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4. Steve Kelley – Set Me Free (Extended Mix) 06:03 123bpm Cm
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7. Ucha – Moonlight Drive (Extended Mix) 06:33 72bpm Cm
8. Voguz – It’s About You (Extended Mix) 05:40 125bpm Em
9. Moby – Go (Victor Ruiz Remix) 09:19 127bpm Em
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12. Seba Campos – Canto Al Sol (Original Mix) 04:37 97bpm Am
13. Iman Hanzo – Canario (Original Mix) 06:57 122bpm F#m
14. Gorge – Sleepless (Extended Mix) 06:35 122bpm Fm
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16. Gabriel Vezzola – Gnostis (Extended Mix) 06:06 123bpm Ebm
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26. Loui & Scibi – Get Down (Extended Mix) 05:24 125bpm D
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28. LITERATURA – A Book of Hope (Extended Mix) 08:32 125bpm Am
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Hello. Does anyone have any advice on dealing with Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria? I struggle with it greatly, and was hoping others could share what works for them. I have severe RSD in that I imagined a situation in which a friend could lie to me and felt rejected and overwhelmed and depressed because of it. This is not a friend who lies to me, nor do I have any reason to believe that he would do so, but in my mind because the possibility exists that he could lie, I was immediately suffering from the issues listed above. Any help dealing with this would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance!

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I havent relapsed this bad since maybe last year? i’ve been trying to recover for 2 years now and i’m just so tired of it.
I’ve been doing intermittent fasting every day along with calorie counting and trying to stick to omads, ive been looking at thinspo again and sports i never felt i was “skinny” enough for, ive been begging my dad to renew my gym membership claiming i just want to work on my legs and core for my sport
I’m losing excuses to come up with for my parents because i stupidly told them last year that when i was recovering that I had an ed and now they know and watch my every move and i don’t know what to say
My mum threw my scale out in december and since then ive been having to sneak into my parents room whilst they’re at work and secretly use my dads scale and if they’re working from home i’m basically fucked or i just don’t eat until they’re downstairs & away from their bedroom
Me and my gf who also had an ed broke up in december and now i don’t have anyone to talk to about it who really understands and it sucks, all my friends that also had ed’s I lost when i officially started recovering and now most of them are recovered or so deep into their ed’s just looking at them is a massive trigger for me
Everything else in my life is getting so bad and my anxiety is 10x worse and keeping track of my intake and fasting is the only way i can prove to myself that i have power over my life and ive been like this since i was 13 but i still feel like an imposter because i’m not underweight and i never have been, i don’t know what to do