New stores coming to inwood wv

place might be coming back this year, and we need to unite out community to create a giant Peppino. The pizza tower fanbase is huge so we need to gather as many people as possible to help as possible. We need to create a new pizza tower discord server for us to plan and do things. What do you guys think?

I pay addicts axes and twenty sacks to come at ya Throwing bats that they catching get samurai Jack to attack ya Man I'd pay lawyers taxes just to watch them take what you took back Look at you acting so tough but we both know that you shook Know that they'll throw the book at you if they knew the truth That's the past though and this is the living proof I'm back and I'm through the worst and I feel new Free of guilt, shame, the embarrassment of you Renewing my feelings reviewing my dealings Healing my demons, chopping heads off when they grow anew I'm freeing my feelings removing the ceiling Cos this thing I feel, this craving for you ain't my truth It's just not true anymore that I feel you So far away full of anger, rage and regret Guilt and shame and embarrassment That you're still defensive about Think you got that clout but it's fake like the words out your mouth Man it's true I rue the day I met you Yeah that Tuesday That you text me and I was out working down south Hey this is Sam And I knew who you were cos I'd just been thinking about you Not a week went by that I didn't But I pretended I didn't remember Remember? Like Sam who? Like I knew 2 Sam's So many days wasted cos I tasted forbidden fruit Forcing myself to believe your truth or be damned No proof every day farming bullshit and drama You don't see it but you caused so much harm I miss the life I tasted but I don't want it back I miss your charm but not the lies Me trying then you lying then you cheating and me dying Then you lying then me trying then you crying and me dying When's the heart attack cos it felt on track A few times you played me made me pretty crazy Felt ego death but having your heart destroyed hits bad, makes you mad No longer a friend picture an enemy unfazed An entity of energy that grows with all this freedom and money for days And let's face it they're hoes, but you ain't one to judge cos we both know And let's face it everyone else does too, look yo You weren't subtle about the shit you were poking from the beginning How you fuck someone with worse teeth than me though Whole mouth see through but I told you that I feel new, been feeling lucky Next one, coke addict, addicted to smacking kids and pregnant women Fuck me what a haul oh yeah, crashing cheap ass cars with loud exhausts That shit gets laughed at round here so keep him, fucking Mike 2 lmao The proof of my rekindling will be sending this little scribble to you And knowing it'll hit you like no! Like yo what the fuck but what if I told you that I posted this shit on Facebook On Instagram and a rotating WhatsApp status Would you believe me cos I would, I'd stop and hesitate And wonder if an archive download of all you Facebook messages Had been sent to your entire contact list, you getting the gist Racist bitch Can you even imagine the shit that would cause cos I can There's enough shit in there for you to catch a case of 4 All you had to do was stop being a lying cheating stealing.. let's say bitch and no more.. But you couldn't do it So it comes to this, lovely What's more even when you left you've used me until now Think I don't notice you sweet talking me every Monday Cos you get paid our money plus my money plus still getting child credit And spend it on your coke fuelled honey, Lie to me and everyone else that I leave you with nothing When you've stolen every pound, didn't leave me or the animals a penny You benefit thief, just for effect cos you deserve and you won't hear it so far down there, here's a scouse "eeeee!" So now go be free live in the poorest part of the country, fade in with all the cars and money and your kid and your honey, what's quality of life anyway? Cos it's fading away quickly and being replaced with something that the people you don't like think is funny

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God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that you may be able to bear it. (1 Cor 10:13)
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. (2 Cor 1:3-4)
I was very attached to video games as an adolescent. As I weaned off the video games, I became drawn and attached to drugs, alcohol and fornication. When I finally got sober and separated from bad company, I once again started playing video games heavily. During my second video game stint, I was reading the Bible briefly each day, but it was something like 5 minutes of reading the Bible versus hours upon hours of playing and thinking about video games. It is quite apparent that Satan is always working to distract us from seeking the LORD and His truth.
The past several months, I've had thoughts about video games and have been tempted to start playing them again. Nostalgia hits hard, and I think about the past and all the times video games have given me comfort. I believe this nostalgia is a deception. It’s good to appreciate and learn from the past, but we need to be focused on improving in this present moment.
Then recently I had a short dream, just before I woke up to a new day, and I immediately connected this dream to the thoughts I have been having and asking the LORD about.
In the dream, I was escorted to a prison cell, and in the cell were two inmates, sitting on an array of cushions, playing video games. Then I woke up.
This dream confirmed to me that video games are something that belong in my past, and that Satan wants us to be comfortable and pleased in distractions.
Video games are certainly better than drugs, alcohol and fornicating, but the question is, as a grown man, are they worth any of the precious time the LORD has given me? My conclusion is no. What has helped me come to this conclusion is 1. accepting the fact that I am not one to play just 30 minutes of a video game. “A little yeast works through the whole batch of dough.” (Gal 5:9), and 2. considering all the fruits of playing video games — Video games take my attention for a period of time, satisfy a childhood attachment, and maybe give me some dopamine. And when I’m done playing, then what? At best, I do something productive, but more than likely the video game occupies my mind and I end up playing it more. On the other hand, I can spend time praying, reading the Bible, writing about it, meditating on it in nature, listening to edifying content, or exercising. All of these activities bring me peace and clarity, and leave me uplifted and improved.
I’m not totally condemning entertainment or saying it is inherently evil, but it is certainly a huge distraction in most of our lives, and sounds eerily similar to “containment” and “detainment”. I still occasionally watch a film, show, or sports game (always ready to divert my eyes from wicked or tempting images). My takeaway points are we must listen carefully for the LORD, recognize when He is convicting us of certain things, and be willing to make uncomfortable changes. We must continually examine our lives and deeply consider all the fruits of all our thoughts and actions. We must never let entertainment, social media, or anything come close to outweighing the LORD in our thoughts and actions. Praise and meditation of the LORD should strongly predominate every day.
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8)
No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. (Matthew 6:24)

God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that you may be able to bear it. (1 Cor 10:13)
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. (2 Cor 1:3-4)
I was very attached to video games as an adolescent. As I weaned off the video games, I became drawn and attached to drugs, alcohol and fornication. When I finally got sober and separated from bad company, I once again started playing video games heavily. During my second video game stint, I was reading the Bible briefly each day, but it was something like 5 minutes of reading the Bible versus hours upon hours of playing and thinking about video games. It is quite apparent that Satan is always working to distract us from seeking the LORD and His truth.
The past several months, I've had thoughts about video games and have been tempted to start playing them again. Nostalgia hits hard, and I think about the past and all the times video games have given me comfort. I believe this nostalgia is a deception. It’s good to appreciate and learn from the past, but we need to be focused on improving in this present moment.
Then recently I had a short dream, just before I woke up to a new day, and I immediately connected this dream to the thoughts I have been having and asking the LORD about.
In the dream, I was escorted to a prison cell, and in the cell were two inmates, sitting on an array of cushions, playing video games. Then I woke up.
This dream confirmed to me that video games are something that belong in my past, and that Satan wants us to be comfortable and pleased in distractions.
Video games are certainly better than drugs, alcohol and fornicating, but the question is, as a grown man, are they worth any of the precious time the LORD has given me? My conclusion is no. What has helped me come to this conclusion is 1. accepting the fact that I am not one to play just 30 minutes of a video game. “A little yeast works through the whole batch of dough.” (Gal 5:9), and 2. considering all the fruits of playing video games — Video games take my attention for a period of time, satisfy a childhood attachment, and maybe give me some dopamine. And when I’m done playing, then what? At best, I do something productive, but more than likely the video game occupies my mind and I end up playing it more. On the other hand, I can spend time praying, reading the Bible, writing about it, meditating on it in nature, listening to edifying content, or exercising. All of these activities bring me peace and clarity, and leave me uplifted and improved.
I’m not totally condemning entertainment or saying it is inherently evil, but it is certainly a huge distraction in most of our lives, and sounds eerily similar to “containment” and “detainment”. I still occasionally watch a film, show, or sports game (always ready to divert my eyes from wicked or tempting images). My takeaway points are we must listen carefully for the LORD, recognize when He is convicting us of certain things, and be willing to make uncomfortable changes. We must continually examine our lives and deeply consider all the fruits of all our thoughts and actions. We must never let entertainment, social media, or anything come close to outweighing the LORD in our thoughts and actions. Praise and meditation of the LORD should strongly predominate every day.
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8)
No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. (Matthew 6:24)

Hi Folks - We are currently building out a new home and the media room is about 16' x10'. It comes prewired for 7.2.4 with a mix of 16 and 18awg copper wiring for speakers and dual Cat 6E ethernet jacks.
I want to plan out the selections for speakers, woofer and AV receivers and wondering if its worth it to fully utilize 7.2.4 or just stick with 5.1.2 given the room size. Any pointers on selecting the lounge recliners etc would be appreciated.
Heavy PLEX user here. Currently have a beam gen 2 + sub and 2 One's as rear surrounds. Would love to hear yiur thoughts on going custom speakers vs soundbar given the room size.

God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that you may be able to bear it. (1 Cor 10:13)
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. (2 Cor 1:3-4)
I was very attached to video games as an adolescent. As I weaned off the video games, I became drawn and attached to drugs, alcohol and fornication. When I finally got sober and separated from bad company, I once again started playing video games heavily. During my second video game stint, I was reading the Bible briefly each day, but it was something like 5 minutes of reading the Bible versus hours upon hours of playing and thinking about video games. It is quite apparent that Satan is always working to distract us from seeking the LORD and His truth.
The past several months, I've had thoughts about video games and have been tempted to start playing them again. Nostalgia hits hard, and I think about the past and all the times video games have given me comfort. I believe this nostalgia is a deception. It’s good to appreciate and learn from the past, but we need to be focused on improving in this present moment.
Then recently I had a short dream, just before I woke up to a new day, and I immediately connected this dream to the thoughts I have been having and asking the LORD about.
In the dream, I was escorted to a prison cell, and in the cell were two inmates, sitting on an array of cushions, playing video games. Then I woke up.
This dream confirmed to me that video games are something that belong in my past, and that Satan wants us to be comfortable and pleased in distractions.
Video games are certainly better than drugs, alcohol and fornicating, but the question is, as a grown man, are they worth any of the precious time the LORD has given me? My conclusion is no. What has helped me come to this conclusion is 1. accepting the fact that I am not one to play just 30 minutes of a video game. “A little yeast works through the whole batch of dough.” (Gal 5:9), and 2. considering all the fruits of playing video games — Video games take my attention for a period of time, satisfy a childhood attachment, and maybe give me some dopamine. And when I’m done playing, then what? At best, I do something productive, but more than likely the video game occupies my mind and I end up playing it more. On the other hand, I can spend time praying, reading the Bible, writing about it, meditating on it in nature, listening to edifying content, or exercising. All of these activities bring me peace and clarity, and leave me uplifted and improved.
I’m not totally condemning entertainment or saying it is inherently evil, but it is certainly a huge distraction in most of our lives, and sounds eerily similar to “containment” and “detainment”. I still occasionally watch a film, show, or sports game (always ready to divert my eyes from wicked or tempting images). My takeaway points are we must listen carefully for the LORD, recognize when He is convicting us of certain things, and be willing to make uncomfortable changes. We must continually examine our lives and deeply consider all the fruits of all our thoughts and actions. We must never let entertainment, social media, or anything come close to outweighing the LORD in our thoughts and actions. Praise and meditation of the LORD should strongly predominate every day.
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8)
No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. (Matthew 6:24)

God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that you may be able to bear it. (1 Cor 10:13)
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. (2 Cor 1:3-4)
I was very attached to video games as an adolescent. As I weaned off the video games, I became drawn and attached to drugs, alcohol and fornication. When I finally got sober and separated from bad company, I once again started playing video games heavily. During my second video game stint, I was reading the Bible briefly each day, but it was something like 5 minutes of reading the Bible versus hours upon hours of playing and thinking about video games. It is quite apparent that Satan is always working to distract us from seeking the LORD and His truth.
The past several months, I've had thoughts about video games and have been tempted to start playing them again. Nostalgia hits hard, and I think about the past and all the times video games have given me comfort. I believe this nostalgia is a deception. It’s good to appreciate and learn from the past, but we need to be focused on improving in this present moment.
Then recently I had a short dream, just before I woke up to a new day, and I immediately connected this dream to the thoughts I have been having and asking the LORD about.
In the dream, I was escorted to a prison cell, and in the cell were two inmates, sitting on an array of cushions, playing video games. Then I woke up.
This dream confirmed to me that video games are something that belong in my past, and that Satan wants us to be comfortable and pleased in distractions.
Video games are certainly better than drugs, alcohol and fornicating, but the question is, as a grown man, are they worth any of the precious time the LORD has given me? My conclusion is no. What has helped me come to this conclusion is 1. accepting the fact that I am not one to play just 30 minutes of a video game. “A little yeast works through the whole batch of dough.” (Gal 5:9), and 2. considering all the fruits of playing video games — Video games take my attention for a period of time, satisfy a childhood attachment, and maybe give me some dopamine. And when I’m done playing, then what? At best, I do something productive, but more than likely the video game occupies my mind and I end up playing it more. On the other hand, I can spend time praying, reading the Bible, writing about it, meditating on it in nature, listening to edifying content, or exercising. All of these activities bring me peace and clarity, and leave me uplifted and improved.
I’m not totally condemning entertainment or saying it is inherently evil, but it is certainly a huge distraction in most of our lives, and sounds eerily similar to “containment” and “detainment”. I still occasionally watch a film, show, or sports game (always ready to divert my eyes from wicked or tempting images). My takeaway points are we must listen carefully for the LORD, recognize when He is convicting us of certain things, and be willing to make uncomfortable changes. We must continually examine our lives and deeply consider all the fruits of all our thoughts and actions. We must never let entertainment, social media, or anything come close to outweighing the LORD in our thoughts and actions. Praise and meditation of the LORD should strongly predominate every day.
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8)
No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. (Matthew 6:24)

Hi,
My father's PC is experiencing random intervals of slowing down or freezing. Can't open anything. For instance, when he watches a downloaded film, after twenty to thirty minutes, the entire PC suddenly lags. However, when he plays games, there are no issues.
This problem was also present in his previous PC. When I used his old PC, I experienced the same issue. However, after resetting the PC, the problem went away. Therefore, it is possible that my father is doing something to cause the PC to malfunction.
Another possible cause could be the SSD we transferred, but this does not explain why the issue continued even after I removed the SSD from the old PC. It is worth noting that the SSD is only used for storing video games and films.
Additionally, when the PC was lagging on his previous computer, I noticed that the disk usage was at 87% with only 0.4 MB/S, but this was after I had already removed the suspected SSD.
Finally, when the new PC is experiencing these slowings and freezings, the taskbar isn't showing a strange usage of disk like before. (but is it because now he has in total 8TB with his combined SSDs? The percentage shown might be false?)
How can I know if it's a hardware or software?
The specs of the PCs are fairly good they both had:

• MSI PRO B660M A WIFI DDR4
• I5 12400F
• RTX 3080

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I've been reading this sub for a couple of years now and over that time I've probably come across this debate hundreds of times: do dividends drop the stock price by the dividend amount on the ex-date?
While there is a clear answer to this question, I think the way it's been explained hasn't been clear enough to reach some of the people who hold other positions on this matter. I thought of a method of explaining the answer that I hope might help make things clearer.
My method is this: think of a dividend payment as a two step process. In the first step, the company spins off an all-cash subsidiary. In the second step, the all-cash company dissolves and distributes its holdings to shareholders.
For example, let's say Acme Corp. has a market cap of $1 billion. It has 10 million shares outstanding, and each share is worth $100. It has $100 million of cash in its bank account. On June 1, Acme Corp. is scheduled to distribute its quarterly dividend of $5 per share. Since it has 10 million shares outstanding and needs to give shareholders $5 per share, it spins off $50 million of its cash into a separate company, Acme Cash Holdings. Now there are two companies, Acme Corp., with everything that Acme Corp had before the spinoff, except with only $50 million in the bank, and the new company, Acme Cash Holdings, with nothing but a bank account with $50 million of cash in it. Every investor who held 1 share of Acme Corp now also holds 1 share of Acme Cash Holdings.
Then, on the day the dividend is distributed, Acme Cash Holdings dissolves. Its $50 million cash is distributed to its 10 million shares, each share becomes $5 in cash. So now, every investor who has 1 share of the old Acme Corp still has 1 share of the new Acme Corp, plus $5 in cash in their brokerage account.
Now it should be easy to answer the question: what happens to the stock price of Acme Corp on the day the spin-off takes place? I think we should be able to agree, that the spin-off simply splits the stock price of Acme Corp between the two entities: $95 goes to the remaining Acme Corp, and $5 goes to Acme Cash Holdings. That is to say, on the ex-date, the stock price of Acme Corp should drop by $5, the exact amount of the dividend.
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A common objection people have to this idea is, when looking at historical data, stock prices don't always drop exactly by the dividend amount on the ex-date. The spin-off model can help answer this too: when the spin off occurs, but the stock of Acme Corp starts trading at $96 the day of the spin off rather than $95, what happened? Simple: regular trading of Acme Corp stock caused it to go up $1. The spin-off mental model helps us see that, any price movement of the stock on the ex-date should be thought of as occurring on top of the drop caused by the dividend, it does not negate the drop.

In my opinion, there are some glaring problems with how Squigly's characterization was handled in her SGM origin story. Many people probably will disagree with these points, but it's been something I've been sitting on for a while, and with the onset of possible new Squigly content with the Dahlia DLC, I hope the writing is handled better than it was there.
Firstly, I hate how they changed Squigly's death to having been caused by her mouthing off to Dahlia, which almost implies that she brought getting shot on herself by being so carelessly and uncharacteristically defiant. It completely ignores the much more tragic scene the game had shown of her being held up at point blank and frozen with fear. And it's not like the couldn't have just included that still image, like they did for other scenes from the base game. The change drastically lowers the emotional weight this moment was meant to have.
Speaking of emotional weight, Squigly's reaction to being shot and killed, not to mention witnessing her ENTIRE family being brutally massacred (keep in mind she was killed last) is practically nonexistent. She makes one comment asking Leviathan if she's really dead, then doesn't think about it again. She even goes so far as to console HIM over his feelings of guilt at not being able to fully protect her. She experiences no trauma, no existential dread, no desire for revenge, not even that much real happiness over being alive again. Just a joke about if zombies can think, then telling Leviathan to call her Squigly and rapidly move on with this thinly produced "story".
Much of the same can be said about her fight with her parents (Roberto still being self-aware is the most contrived piece of writing this game has ever come up with, and was only just introduced in this story). While disappointing I can excuse the lack of emotion from Selene and Roberto because of Skull Heart mind control (never stopped Marie from being compelling, but fine), but I'm just supposed to buy that Squigly is completely fine with seeing the fresh corpses of her parents, then finding out she has to RE-kill them with almost no hesitation? The only excuse I can think for this shoddy writing is that Leviathan was wrong and Squigly is more of a zombie than she thought, seeing how she gave no thought or reaction to what she was forced to do, and what should've been an unbearably traumatic act for her given her characterization.
There was a lot of potential there for a truly gripping, stirring story about grief, tragedy and doing what's needed despite it all. But what did we get instead? Some Castlevania references? The writers' sure had their priorities straight. Squigly had always been my favorite character in all Skullgirls, but after the joke that was her origin story, it's really hard to take her, her story or even her death seriously.

Grand Theft Auto 6 (GTA 6) is an elusive beast that has eluded [official] detection for years. The current “big dog” Grand Theft Auto V was first released way back in September 2013, and has been available across two console generations (Xbox 360/PS3 and Xbox One/PS4). It will even be available natively on next-generation Xbox Series X and PlayStation 5 consoles, which is quite unprecedented in the gaming realm. So, while Rockstar seems reticent to just letting us wait in agony for any news on GTA 6, it is at least giving us some new updates on its two current hot properties: GTA Online and Red Dead Online.
In the case of the incredibly popular (and highly lucrative) GTA Online, Rockstar says that a big “summer update” is coming for gamers with a “fun mix of diverse” content to partake in. Even more interesting is the fact that the developers indicate that its “biggest update ever” is coming before the end of 2020. That update will include new Heists that will take place in a completely new location, which has definitely piqued our interests.
red dead online As for Red Dead Online, its next big update is actually arriving next week; on July 28th to be exact. Red Dead Online hasn’t exactly been teaming with new content, as the last big update for the online component of Red Dead Redemption 2 dropped way back in December 2019. However, Rockstar is promising a new Frontier Pursuit mode with a focus on “naturalism” and a new battle pass-type component, which is conveniently named Outlaw Pass. Finally, Rockstar says that it has addressed tons of bugs with the game and has taken community feedback to heart with this release, which is definitely appreciated.
In addition to the game updates on the way, Rockstar also took the time to address the well-being of its online communities. “We are also committed to ensuring that our games are fun for everyone and as safe as possible from modders, cheaters, hackers, and those who seek to harass other players,” said the company in its blog post.
“So far this year, we have taken action on hundreds of thousands of players caught violating community rules across both games. Please help us keep our communities safe and fun by reporting any sort of cheating either directly in-game or via our dedicated web reporting tools for both Red Dead Online and GTA Online.”
It's good to see that Rockstar is cracking down on those looking to spoil the fun for everyone, and its methods for “taking out” such offenders is among the best in the industry.

God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that you may be able to bear it. (1 Cor 10:13)
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. (2 Cor 1:3-4)
I was very attached to video games as an adolescent. As I weaned off the video games, I became drawn and attached to drugs, alcohol and fornication. When I finally got sober and separated from bad company, I once again started playing video games heavily. During my second video game stint, I was reading the Bible briefly each day, but it was something like 5 minutes of reading the Bible versus hours upon hours of playing and thinking about video games. It is quite apparent that Satan is always working to distract us from seeking the LORD and His truth.
The past several months, I've had thoughts about video games and have been tempted to start playing them again. Nostalgia hits hard, and I think about the past and all the times video games have given me comfort. I believe this nostalgia is a deception. It’s good to appreciate and learn from the past, but we need to be focused on improving in this present moment.
Then recently I had a short dream, just before I woke up to a new day, and I immediately connected this dream to the thoughts I have been having and asking the LORD about.
In the dream, I was escorted to a prison cell, and in the cell were two inmates, sitting on an array of cushions, playing video games. Then I woke up.
This dream confirmed to me that video games are something that belong in my past, and that Satan wants us to be comfortable and pleased in distractions.
Video games are certainly better than drugs, alcohol and fornicating, but the question is, as a grown man, are they worth any of the precious time the LORD has given me? My conclusion is no. What has helped me come to this conclusion is 1. accepting the fact that I am not one to play just 30 minutes of a video game. “A little yeast works through the whole batch of dough.” (Gal 5:9), and 2. considering all the fruits of playing video games — Video games take my attention for a period of time, satisfy a childhood attachment, and maybe give me some dopamine. And when I’m done playing, then what? At best, I do something productive, but more than likely the video game occupies my mind and I end up playing it more. On the other hand, I can spend time praying, reading the Bible, writing about it, meditating on it in nature, listening to edifying content, or exercising. All of these activities bring me peace and clarity, and leave me uplifted and improved.
I’m not totally condemning entertainment or saying it is inherently evil, but it is certainly a huge distraction in most of our lives, and sounds eerily similar to “containment” and “detainment”. I still occasionally watch a film, show, or sports game (always ready to divert my eyes from wicked or tempting images). My takeaway points are we must listen carefully for the LORD, recognize when He is convicting us of certain things, and be willing to make uncomfortable changes. We must continually examine our lives and deeply consider all the fruits of all our thoughts and actions. We must never let entertainment, social media, or anything come close to outweighing the LORD in our thoughts and actions. Praise and meditation of the LORD should strongly predominate every day.
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8)
No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. (Matthew 6:24)

(Yes I'm posting and I will keep on posting till I find a true friend - Which is unbelievably hard on reddit)Only Europe Please- short note - If you're not into reading or receiving long messages,don't read any further + Please If you don't want to read everything because of my post being too long for you & instead of reading It all - ..skip some parts - find another person to talk to.Let's respect each other and our free time. All people criticizing/making fun of me & other people - will permanently be blocked.Pretty much as people questioning my post and giving me unwanted advice.I'm not here for any conflicts and I know I can't please everyone - I know I never will.. However It's me who should feel comfortable in my new potential friendship & obviously someone interested in being my friend - not the whole world which is why I don't need any advice from people who don't even want to be a part of my life.
Hello guys! 🙂 (read everything before you decide to send me a message) Please send me a message ONLY If you're in the same situation and If your expectations are the same as mine.I want to find like minded people from Europe (Why Europe? Read my post to find out) I'm looking for something permanent
(remember - you can feel lonely even If you're surrounded by others - If there's no emotional bond) I'm fed up of meeting people who never make any time for me & only text me once or twice a week to ask me "what are you up to?" Out of boredom.I don't want to meet people asking others a million of questions like "what's your favorite movie?" Just to give you one word answer and ask you another question "and music? Your favorite song?" I'm looking for something "deeper" & different🙂
What kind of friend would I like to find? Someone to talk to on a daily basis - Someone who needs It & wants It just as much as me
Do you ever feel like an option? Like a stranger to others despite knowing them for months or years & talking to them quite often? Like there's always something and someone more important than you and you just..don't fit in and no matter what you do - your effort is never appreciated?
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I'm always the one texting people immediately (or at the very least trying to) no matter where I am and who I am with (family) others? Never - except for one exception.A really lovely person.
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What are my expectations? I would like to meet someone in a similar situation – why? Because I honestly feel like only a person with the same expectations and a similar outlook on life would get along with me & because I feel more comfortable talking to people like me..Friendless people who need a strong bond - people without friends and without partners..Don't get me wrong…Most people deserve to be happy and It's good to have friends but people who have friends or families in real life are usually more focused on them ( which is completely understandable) & have less time for others + I simply don't want to be replaced by anyone..I kind of envy people who can call others , true friends given I don't have an emotional bond with any of my acquaintances. Whenever I hear that others have friends I simply get sad because (believe it or not) If I had to choose between 20 people to talk to (Acquaintances) and one special person - I'd choose that one special person without any hesitation .. I also want to talk to others on a daily basis mainly because..I want to see someone’s effort & be someone's first choice - not another person to have random conversations with..Why I'd rather talk to people from my continent? Well..Mainly because I would like to see someone I'd get along with - In the far future - face to face :) + I don't want to wait any longer than 6 hours to receive a message - Especially given most people are always available on social media sites & keep their phones in a pocket.Once you receive & open my message - get back to me (If you're as serious as I am & really need a true friend) waiting 6 hours to receive a message is more than enough
I'm by no means criticising people who don't want to talk to others often / People who really are super busy & People who want to find someone to have non important conversations with - I'm aware that not everyone has the same expectations which is why everything you're reading now - is here for a reason.All I'm suggesting is - I don't want anything temporary and I don't want to be the one always giving more than receiving.
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Listen people - I used to ignore being..ignored by others..always being just an option to talk to during tough times or moments of boredom.I was too young to realize that I was never important enough for most people that were a part of my life
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I don't know who needs to hear this but..No one is too busy to make time for you! People make excuses to avoid others because they prioritize everything and (maybe) everyone..over them. It's true that most people really are busy - but It takes only a few seconds to start a conversation (If you're into short messages) and a few minutes (1-10/15) to type a long message Don't let anyone lie to you.Truth is that most people either don't like you enough to make time for you or just simply - feel no need to talk to others often but are they too busy? No..
You don't need to send me a message just to ask me and tell me "Do you really want to talk daily? I like long messages but I can't promise to contact you often" If you really are unsure please don't send me a message.I don't need more acquaintances aka people to talk to - occasionally
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I'm not trying to sound rude - I just don't want to meet new people and get emotionally attached - only to end up being left alone after weeks or months of daily conversations.I'm sick of that never ending story and always meeting people who ghost me without a single word (even if everything seems to be ok) or people who "change priorities" over time & become like strangers…I don't want to go through this ever again.
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Let me tell you one thing – A true friend would never just give up on you for no reason :)
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It’s always possible to find someone to have a random conversation with – someone willing to send you one message once or twice a week..but..It’s almost impossible to find people willing to make time for you.I’m not asking a busy person to make time for me by changing some plans! Absolutely not! I’m here to find someone who wants to talk daily (throughout the day or maybe even night) of one’s own will.Someone looking for the same kind of connection.
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Strong friendships are based on mutual support. One of the best things you can do for a friend in need, is just to be there for them when they want to talk.I often see posts from people who always say how friendless they are because they don't feel loved or appreciated by their "friends" remember! A true friend - someone who truly likes you or someone who wants to get to know you - will always find time for you. 🙂 I'm not really interested in small talk/short messages - I love long and meaningful conversations. It's so easy to find someone who loves abbreviations and questions like "How are you?" How was your day? Or what are you interested in? But so hard/almost impossible to find a person who knows how to keep a conversation going & show others some effort.Building and maintaining friendships takes time and effort.Never allow pursuits or possessions to become bigger priorities than your relations with other people.Close friendships are so important to us because they are so difficult to form + Having friends can help you feel as if you belong to something that brings purpose and connection to your life.
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• I do NOT respond to any „Hey,hmu” or „u want to talk” type of messages (super short messages or messages full of abbreviations – I literally can’t stand abbreviations and acronyms in text messages) ALL messages full of abbreviations will immediately be ignored.I also don't like it when people ignore everything I say in my post or messages and just focus on some question in a certain message or... when they don't ask me any questions themselves.
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• No dirty messages PLEASE.I'm not looking for anyone to flirt with and I'm not looking for a partner either. No NSWF profiles..I always check people's profiles (Even comment history) - To avoid guys,trying to get inappropriate photos from adult women or? flirt with them.I also absolutely don't respond to messages from people whose comments are very rude & obviously - Messages from people who judge other people and use vulgar words to describe them or? Make fun of them.Respect is very important
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• Please only adult people 18-36 age range (I'm 27)
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• I don’t respond to messages I don’t find interesting even If they're long - If after receiving and reading your message I don't feel comfortable or think "I wouldn't get along with him/her" I simply do not respond (what I’m suggesting is that I don’t always respond to someone’s first or second message because..sometimes you just know If you’d get along with someone or not- I’d never ignore anyone after days or weeks of daily conversations though) just because I don’t want to do anything forcefully & because I don’t want to lead anyone on. Some people don't message me back as well and even though It is a bit disappointing I'm ok with that as long as there's no emotional bond - I think it's ok to not respond to someone's first or second message If people just think they wouldn't get along I can't stand being ignored after days or weeks of daily conversation and seeing people changing priorities This is something I don't want to go through ever again for real If I'm really interested in someone's message - I respond within a matter of minutes - max 6 hours (If I'm in bed - just sleeping) you won't even hear from me "I'm too busy" because I know myself and If I really was too busy to make time for others - I wouldn't be here.I either want to talk to someone..or not.I don't want to pretend someone I'm not and always try to find some cheap excuses to avoid others. (unlike some people)
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• Don’t ask me “Can you tell me something about yourself?” If you really want to get to know me - you can ask me questions :) I'm an open book.
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• It would be better If you guys were into emojis - just like me - just to describe your emotions through text. Two emojis - 🙂 and 🙁 are completely enough I just don't like emotionless messages.I also don't like it when people say "yeah" or yea"as it sounds dismissively.
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• I want to talk on reddit first (just to make sure If I'd get along with you ) before moving to Discord or some other app
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• Time response matters to me a lot! It matters to me whether I get a message back after one hour,three hours,6 hours or..12 hours and even..after a couple of days..And If you're another person just looking for one day conversation and then? "Disappear" for some amount of time longer than one day to come back and apologize me for being busy - don't even leave me a message.I just want to be honest with you from the start.I'm interested only in daily conversations
Why can’t you see any of my interests listed down below? Because what really matters to me is..who you are (If you’re honest,talkative,understanding,caring and trustworthy – for example) just simply – It matters to me what you’re like! not what you like.Don’t get me wrong – you can tell me what your hobbies are but in my personal opinion,common interests are important mainly when you want to find a gaming buddy (for example) or If you want to meet someone to hang out with in real life and..go bowling for example.What most people seem to care about are other people's interests – I don’t. I get along with other people despite having completely different hobbies but I absolutely don’t get along with people way different than me (different expectations and outlook on life– way different sense of humor or personality traits – It’s just an example) It doesn't make ANY DIFFERENCE to me If you're a gamer or? Someone interested in photography! It doesn't make any difference - > as long as you're talkative and kind and If you also want to find someone willing to stay in your life..for good - But If you're into small talk and all you want is to...type and receive super short messages or If you're here only because you're bored and don't know what to do + If you're a very sarcastic person - I'm definitely not for you!I don't get along with overly sarcastic people turning everything into a joke
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Friendships should be natural – not forced.Both people wanting to be friends should feel comfortable and have something in common. No - not necessarily a similar taste in music or movies but something else..Most friendships don't fizzle out because of people not having the same hobbies but..because they just simply have different expectations when It comes to something important.
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I'm not here out of boredom and trust me - I'm not here to meet as many people as possible.I choose quality over quantity.I higly value myself and my time & Sometimes one person but a person who makes you feel comfortable and understood - is more than enough :)
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We ALL can choose what kind of people we’d like to talk to and maybe even become really good friends with and I? I don’t want anyone to be disappointed.We all have some expectations after all.
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If you really need someone to talk to due to loneliness and If you have time to talk to me daily (throughout the day and maybe even night)I always make time for others.I'm literally always available.I could even stay up all night long only to talk to someone. I’m ready to commit but only If there’s some chemistry between me and someone else.I don’t do anything forcefully.
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If you want to talk to me tell me your story - tell me why you're here, what kind of friend would you like to meet :) Et cetera.Such messages are way more interesting to me than...someone's long list of hobbies.I know! It's unusual on reddit but I don't make friends based on hobbies..I want to meet someone with the same mindset as mine to finally feel understood and get close to someone new.
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You can share your problems with me - I absolutely don't mind "complaining" as I've been through a lot in my life.What do people usually tell you when you tell them that's something's wrong? "Don't complain" or "Life's not over yet - one day you'll be happy" or "There are worse situations than yours" and..obviously "Find a therapist" Life's not a fairytale and sometimes things don't go as planned.Emotions shouldn't be bottled up.I'm sick of people always telling others "everything's gonna be ok" move on " & more..Trust me people - not everyone wants to hear "Just believe in yourself and everything's gonna be ok" Some people take it as reassurance. But others see it as false hope. Imagine being told that things will be okay, only for them to get worse..Do you guys know why telling someone "everything's gonna be ok" Is wrong? Because you can't see the future. You can't guarantee others that one day they'll finally be happy + when It comes to social interactions - We're only responsible for ourselves - not for others & as you guys know people let us down quite often (sometimes even when there's no reason) so instead of telling people how they should move on,forget everything and be happy or asking them to find a therapist - be there for them! Always be willing to listen to them If you really like them or want to get to know them & don't suggest everyone in a tough situation to find a therapist because a therapist won't ever replace a true friend + It's quite normal to be disappointed If people always do something to hurt you.Sharing your hardships with other people in a very similar situation or exactly the same one - is VERY helpful If the other person understands you & wants to start all over by just letting it all out & feeling emotional support instead of always hearing some "positive quotes" or someone saying "Stop complaining let's talk about something else"
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Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on. I appreciate sensitive people who always try to understand others.Empathy is everything
Our world needs more peace 🤗 I've seen a lot of rude comments on reddit.If you don't agree with me - OK but please don't criticize me + Not everyone is here for some advice.
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Listen people - I know how different my post is & I know It won't be easy for me to find what or rather who - I'm looking for BUT I always want to be myself instead of pretending someone I'm not and lying to others.I know It would be easier if (like others) I had less expectations but I I know what I want and honestly? If my post was different..I wouldn't be me.Even If I won't meet a person I'd get along with - that's ok! but don't give me any unwanted advice because I wouldn't change for someone who doesn't even know me pretty much as I wouldn't want to change anyone else.I'm not trying to "fit in" and be like everyone else - just to get more attention.Accept me for who I am or let go - is my motto.I'm not here to argue with anyone and to make fun of others.
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Please - If you're a completely different person than the described type of person I'm looking for (If you love abrreviations,If you don't need an emotional connection,If you're sarcastic and quiet) or If you simply disagree with my post - don't force yourself to send me a message.I want my new potential friendship,to be natural which is why I want you to contact me If your needs are the same - I don't want you to try to change yourself only to please me - Pretending to be someone you're not - is the worst.
I know It's possible to find what I'm looking for as I had conversations with people looking for exactly the same thing and being nice to me - I want to believe in my luck again as I had it a few times on reddit - I've recently lost someone I thought could be a friend of mine (such a perfect match) and I'm sad but I want to finally be happy again & find someone always wanting to talk - sending me random pictures throughout the day - food pictures or pictures of some animals and what is the most important to me? To find people who value online friendships as much as they would value real life ones as there's another human being on the other side
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No comments please.Only Private messages and chat requests.I don't really like public conversations.I also do not respond to comments so If you want to send me a message just do it without saying "You can DM me"

Hello everyone,
I'm not sure if this is the right sub for this so feel free to guide me to right place if not. I contemplated making a new throwaway because this is a very heavy topic but i'm just gonna make a post on this old throwaway. This will be long so I apologize in advance but i'll try to include a TLDR but I ask that you please read or at-least skim because I really need help with this.
I want to start with some important details:

1. my dad was molested/abused by a another man as a teenager with the help of his stepdad
2. my dad has always been adamant that he thinks pedophiles are sick and I remember him saying once anyone who does something to their own kids are sick.

About two years ago I was asked by my sister that I didn't grow up with if I was ever abused by my father. I was told some things about him that made me view him differently and made me uncomfortable speaking to him. He's never touched or assaulted my sister as far as I know but something happened that made her uncomfortable but I won't share it here.
Ever since that day, in the back of my mind i've been having small moments where I look back on my behavior during my childhood and my mental health now and think "could I have abused by him?" but I quickly push it away because as a little girl my dad was my hero. When me and my mom weren't getting along i'd call him and he was there. No matter the time or the place he was always there for me when I needed him. He came to see me every other day and spent hours just talking to me, making up songs with me, playing games with me... just an amazing, active father. I know he loves me because sometimes he looks at me and just cries because his love for me.
Our relationship did get strained during my teen years because he was going through a lot and he would sometimes lash out at me. He was homeless, living in his car, etc. but we got over that and our relationship was back to normal when him and my mom got back together in 2017, my senior year of high school. They got engaged but broke up shortly after for lots of reasons but him and I were still kind of close after that.
I also want to mention that for some reason around 2019-2020 I stopped answering his calls and I didn't really want to spend time with him. I got my first boyfriend around that time so I kind of wrote it off as me being smitten with my new relationship but I remember now that whenever he called my stomach would drop for a second and i'd just stare at it till it stopped ringing because I didn't want to talk to him.
Back to present day, I recently started smoking every single day at night before bed. My routine is roll up, hit a few times, eat and watch some modern family, then go to sleep while i'm coming down.
Sometimes i'll be watching something while high and it'll trigger a memory and this has happened to me a few times before while high. I like to call them epiphanies or realizations but they're usually just a montage of memories from my childhood relating to one thing... for example I had an epiphany/realization about myself once that certain things about my childhood weren't normal even though i always thought they were. I felt all the emotions I felt as a child while going through these abnormal things...
Another example was when I had a realization that my dad dedicated a lot of his time to me when I was a child and i just felt like a little girl who really loved her dad in that moment. This was about 2 months ago and is what made me start feeling comfortable talking normally with my dad again, answering his calls, telling him I love and miss him, etc.
on 3/27 the epiphany/realization was extremely dark and scary. It's so hard to put into words what happened but I felt something.
I was super high and really happy just eating food. I was watching an instagram live and this person gets on this app called monkey and talks to random people.
Idk what the person said or did in the live to trigger this but I randomly was transported to my childhood, at my grandma's house, and I was making out with a grown man. I couldn't see a face or anything but I knew I was a child, I could feel the environment, I could feel doom and fear, my brain just knew someone's tongue was in my mouth and my brain knew it was my dads. I don't know how because I could not see anything but I knew exactly what was happening.
I was completely frozen like in real life and the montage of memories started happening... I remembered my parents sitting me down together asking me if i knew the difference between good touch and bad touch and if anyone had ever touched me but I got the feeling that my dad was watching me while my mom was asking me hoping I didn't remember anything or tell her anything? I told them no because I don't remember anyone touching me but then another memory came of my mom telling me her history of her and my dad's relationship after they had a big fight one night and she randomly asked me if anyone had ever touched me during that conversation. I said no because i don't remember anyone ever touching me. then at the end I thought of me leaving my grandma's house to get into my moms car and I was wearing a blue dress with a white shirt underneath.
I can't explain this but I went back to the original memory of my dad kissing me and it's like I sunk deeper into the memory but it was purely physical and not visual so the feelings and emotions got stronger. I don't know if anyone here has seen stranger things but I can only compare to when the kids would see the clock in season 4 and they were transported to another dimension or place but they were physically still in the same spot.
I guess I got scared so I snapped out of that frozen state I was in and my first, immediate thought was "was I molested by my dad?" and I started hyperventilating. I was like "no, no, no that's not possible maybe im too high. maybe my brain is making this up" like I rejected the idea but the feeling of a man with a beard kissing me just wouldn't go away and I tasted it too like it was so vivid. I was shaking and terrified. It's like my mind had this feeling of 100% certainty that it happened.
Now that i'm sober and it's been a couple of days the feeling isn't as strong but im scared to even look into it further. I'm really close to my dad so if there's any validity to these thoughts then it completely changes my entire life.
The last thing I want to mention is that i've been scared that something happened during my childhood for a couple of years now so i'm thinking it's possible that my brain made this up because it's been a fear of mine so my question is: Do you guys think my brain made up this extremely vivid memory or do you think that I could possibly be a victim of CSA?
If you made it to this point, thank you for reading this post and I hope you can guide me in the right direction because I don't want to bring this up to anyone in my family if it's just my brain making this up.
TLDR: I've been scared for a while that something happened to me as a child after learning some information about my dad. I got really high and experienced a very vivid feeling/memory of kissing my dad as child. I want to know if this was a repressed memory or if my brain is making stuff up

Hey there, me 26 and my long-term girlfriend 25 have been doing these LDR date nights/days and it's great but the problem is I am having problems coming up with something new. Regular days we often play some video games and/or watch a movie or some TV series episodes. We both like food and we are both able to cook.
So yeah any suggestions on which games to try or which movies to watch or something completely new to do on a date night would be really appreciated, thanks!

Four 30+ year old recessed lights on a double wall switch. I’m replacing the recessed lights with LED lights.
The first existing light has a 14-2 (hot/white/ground) coming from the breaker through the first light switch, and a 14-2 going to light 2, and then a 14-2 going on to light 3. All good so far.
The 4th light has a 14-2 coming in - but both the black and white are hot, and I’m confused. I assumed - obviously incorrectly - that this wire was coming from light 3. FWIW, light 4 is the closest to the second light switch.
I don’t think it’s relevant but each of the 4 recessed lights had a heat switch in the fixture’s electrical box.
As I pulled the wires for light 4 out of its box to connect them to the new LED light, nothing appeared differently than from the others, other than there was only a single 14-2 wire coming in and nothing going on to another light. It wasn’t until I hooked up the black/white/ground coming in to light 4 to the LED light and the LED light didn’t turn on did it occur to me anything was different.
So if all I have coming in to light 4 is a single 14-2 with both a black and white hot, how is this supposed to get wired to the new light?
And yes, the old light did work as it was supposed to.
Thanks in advance.

I am a new user for psn and i just bought a new playstation but i am not able to buy any game whenever i tried to do so something went wring error comes up and check with bank everything is fine
Any idea to make it work ?

I was in (home country) again, but what seemed like a more fantasy version that was my brain trying to make it more dreamy. Vibrant colors and a weird creature. My job was to check how the creature's pregnancy was going, but I was given the day off early because the were a lot of staff, and I myself was quite pregnant. I think it was the start of maternity leave for me.
A girl (I think, definitely afab) picked me up and we were driving to visit my nan. I realized that I was dreaming at that point, and even thought "I should ask about what is coming for me in my real future. Dreams like these mean I'm going to wake up soon."
My real world insecurities creeped in while en route.
"Do you think I'm obsessive?" "A little. I don't know anyone who studies like you." "Is that bad?" "No. I love you for you."
She was... kind. Loving. Light brown hair that went near her shoulder blades and brilliant green eyes. I believe her name was Mirian. She adored me, and made sure that our child was safe despite not even entering the world yet. When I realized it was a dream though, I lost all my memories with her, including how we met, and when. I said that I needed to speak with my nan, that it was important, to ask about the future.
She looked at me and asked why, and I had the feeling I shouldn't tell her. I just said "well she has that power, seeing futures." And the world instantly became a little more fantasy, with lovely colours everywhere and mentions of friendly monsters. I think my saying that gave my dream a little more... Power, I guess? Like I was influencing it.
We get there and she takes my hand, walking into the building which is full of life, people signing up Fire magic classes (one kid said he was gonna be like a Charmander, he had a Pikachu shirt. Pokemon were not real, it was just a funny kid.) We took a MASSIVE elevator with all sorts of people in it just chilling and chatting. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw what I was wearing. My black short dress but made for my pregnancy. It was at knee length in the front, and flowed lower in the back. Mirian was wearing a denim jacket and jeans. (Weirdo)
We got to the apartment and my nan had left a note that she was just running out to shop and she would be back soon. Mirian made me sit down on the couch and was cleaning a small stack of books that I know a cat must have knocked over (cat unseen however).
I started asking her questions seeing as the dream seemed to not allow me to my goal.
Why am I back in (home country)? Because we live here, baby.
How old am I? I know not to answer that question! (Laughter) Did you head or something?
No, no, just... Pop quizzing you. You're bored aren't you? A little. Do you want a drink? Oh, Pepsi please. (Offhandedly) Cravings again?
How long was I with- You put up with mistreatment for like, 20 years. You're okay now. You're safe.
As she put down a magazine she asked back as she turned.
Why do you want to know these things so badly? Did you forget? Because this is a dream.
The SECOND I said that, it was like a flash happened, and all those bright colours disappeared. It looked exactly like my nan's apartment in real life. No magic, no fantasy. Nothing. Then, just as quickly, it flashed back to the fantasy part.
She went in the kitchen, grabbed a glass, opened the fridge and kneeled to grab the new Pepsi bottle.
"Come here then, baby."
"Where do we meet?"
"You already know."
"When do we meet?"
(Laughing)
She looked up at me with this little smile. I swear she looked different in those last few seconds. Darker hair.
"Mirian? What was it like tumblr or something stupid like that?"
"You already know."
I woke up.
I grieved for a love that was not real.
I grieved for a baby that did not exist.
I grieved a woman who, just for a moment, loved me.