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TW:ABUSE/MOLESTATION/TRAUMA
very long post, i apologize

I have been in zero contact with my dad, and severely limited contact with my mom and younger sister, for almost two years now. It seemed like things were getting better between me and my mom, she's not supportive but she isn't downright hateful either, and i'll take what I can get at this point, especially since she was the only person who talked to me when I was homeless (dad kicked me out once he found out I was trans) My sister and I had a super rocky relationship, when the therapist we shared told her I was queer against my wishes she told my parents she didn't feel safe sharing a room with my anymore, and then claimed i touched her when we were both kids. I did no such thing, we were both abused by an adult cousin that lived with us at the time, who our parents left us with frequently, who would have us do "activities" together when we were both extremely young. I thought I imagined it all until she described experiencing the same things, but she's adamant it wasn't our cousin, and just me. I don't blame her and I'm not angry at her, even some more recent events of me experiencing assault from when I was homeless are extremely blurry, I know how trauma affects memory, I love her anyways, even when her story resulted in me having to live with my grandparents instead of the rest of my family. I don't want to assume she's lying, we both have the trademarks of kids that got messed with, if she needs someone to blame in a way that makes her feel safe I guess I'm ok with that person being me, our community wouldn't do anything about a man doing those things anyways, and I doubt making her relive all that to remember details would ever be worth it.
Regardless of those things being untrue, she isn't wrong to be angry at me. I was a very cruel and abusive kid. I was left with a gaggle of kids at a young age by neglectful parents, and while I can use the whole "i was only doing what i saw the adults do" thing, it should be noted that she has every right to hate me for not becoming a better person in time for her. We both had a physically and verbally abusive father, at any point I could've seen how it felt for the both of us and tried not to act like that, but I didn't, so she essentially grew up with three abusive parents, and yes, some of that is my fault even if i have my own trauma from back then. It would've been hard to be a better person in those circumstances, but she deserved to be struggled over, and I'll never forgive myself for not teaching her she was worth a fight over my own will.
I got into housing, got married, became a parent, and had to do a lot of forced healing so i wouldn't hurt my kids or my wife the way I was used to seeing. I almost don't recognize myself, I'm barely able to say "no" when I need to now, let alone start fights or hit people, and I'm honestly happy about it. i was suicidal since I was 12, and self harmed for as long as I can remember, but now, after transitioning and being a dad and realizing I didn't turn into my dad, Im not only happier, but I actually haven't thought about offing myself, even with all the horrible news we've been seeing, losing my car, and struggling at work (this stuff would've ended me back then)
In general, I'm a very happy person, and I actually love and act like a person instead of a walking ball of bitterness. i still have a good deal of mental health issues, but they're manageable. My sister says she's been doing amazing, her best friend is getting married, she has a job she loves, she was able to get off her anxiety meds and seems to be handling it well. She said she's happier than she's ever been. She then goes on to say that she's only this happy because she gave up on being asexual and thinking there was more than one way to be married, and then went on to say that she thinks I'm only trans because of trauma, and because of guilt, and that I was so miserable because I was living in sin, and nothing can tell her that I have the mental capacity to make decisions like "switching genders" due to what i experienced, and that I was delusional for "giving up on god" in the time i needed him most.
I told her that wasn't true, I was happy the church helped her but in a lot of ways it made things worse for me, and i told her its ok if our healing processes were different. But also that I didn't randomly decide to be trans, It was as true about me as the color of my skin or the number of hairs on my head, its simply a fact about myself. I told her I would be dead if i hadn't transitioned by now (attempted while I was homeless) and that I wasn't miserable, in fact I was also doing better than I ever had. I told her about my wife and my kids, and how transitioning allowed me to be the best person i could possibly be for them. I told her she could be angry at me, and that I never expected forgiveness. but her being hateful towards me and my family and calling them a sin was not ok.
She hasn't spoken to me since, I doubt she ever will again, i'm not about to chase her down. Since then, I've been in turmoil. Before I started T i did ask myself some hard questions, like wether or not it was an escape from being touched, about wether or not it was just because I hated how i saw women treated while growing up, I sought counseling, I bounced it off my friends and family, I even consulted a bible and tried praying again. I still arrived to the conclusion that I was trans, and that my sister's god is either fake, hard of hearing, or simply doesn't like me very much, because once again there was no response (shocker i know)
But because she brought it all back up, I've been having flashbacks. really bad ones, extremely vivid to the point where I forget where i am or what time it is. I'll wake up and be confused about where I am. Its been horrible, I'll even forget I cut my hair, or that I don't wear denim skirts anymore, because I'll reach for my hair and not grab it, or adjust my waistband before I realize im in pants. Im having the weirdest dysphoria i've ever had, i'll completely forget all my progress, I'll scratch my chin and pause when i remember i have facial hair, or I'll think that my chest is too visible in my clothes, despite the fact that i haven't even had to bind for almost a year thanks to fat redistribution. I yelled from the kitchen for my son to come grab dinner, and weirded myself out because i forgot my voice deepened. My depression came back in full swing, I'm heartbroken over my little sister thinking she needs to let her body be used in a marriage and that her asexuality isn't valid, I'm heartbroken that I'm the reason she has some of her trauma, I'm heartbroken over the fact that someone I love very much downright hates me and my family for being queer.
I just need some love and support right now, I told her if she ever needs anything from me at all I'll still be here, regardless of her personal beliefs, and that's the last thing I'm saying unless she asks me to speak. I know it's for the best that we go back to limited contact, on her time exclusively. Some people told me to cut her off, but I can't do that. I pretty much raised her, I messed up a lot along the way but i did, and to me she's still, and always will be, the little girl I tried to protect. Even if she never speaks to me again, she's my little sis, and I love her. I don't know where to go from here, Im just hurting right now and hoping that it goes away at some point

Video: http://csg001-harm01.canadacentral.cloudapp.azure.com/00298/Harmony/en/PowerBrowsePowerBrowserV2/20230323/-1/15115?viewmode=3
Debates (Contains verbatim):https://docs.legassembly.sk.ca/legdocs/Legislative%20Assembly/Hansard/29L3S/20230323Debates.pdf
Minutes: https://docs.legassembly.sk.ca/legdocs/Legislative%20Assembly/Minutes/29L3S/230323MinutesRevised.pdf
Orders of the day: https://docs.legassembly.sk.ca/legdocs/Legislative%20Assembly/Orders/29L3S/230323Orders.pdf
INTRODUCTION OF GUESTS
Nothing particularly notable.
PRESENTING PETITIONS
Daryl Harrison (SaskParty) 10:07:02
Petition against the NDP Liberal federal government infringing on rights, calls for Sask First policies etc.
Meara Conway (NDP)
Petition to increase SAID rates for people with disabilities. Budget only gave them $1 a day. She reads a story about a recipient who is struggling to eat - at that point the SaskParty starts to heckle her, Speaker interjects and told her to hurry up.
u/10:49:40 The Speaker stops to tell Conway that she broke rules during the petition; she has to be brief and not make an argument or finger point, which he says she did by citing the increase in SAID.
Jennifer Bowes (NDP)
Petition to prohibit conversion therapy as a discredited and abusive practice.
Erika Ritchie (NDP)
Petition to protect provincial water supply. Cites 79 precautionary water advisories and 2 boil waters. Cites a SUMA resolution to investigate the impact of agricultural chemicals on municipal water supplies. Also mentions the affects of illegal crop land draining threatening ground water.
STATEMENTS BY MEMBERS
Response to Provincial Budget 10:13:14
Nadine Wilson (Independant, running as Sask United)
Scolds the government for giving themselves a pay raise while people are struggling. She says “Growth that works for no one”. Calls for meaningful tax cuts and rebates, put people before politics.
The NDP gave applause.
SaskParty heckles her; Don McMorris shouted something that I can’t make out, Paul Merriman made a hand gesture like a talking mouth and shouted something about a coalition. *Note he came in late for statements as well just before this clip.
Global Change Required to Meet Water and Sanitation Crisis 10:14:$6
Erika Ritchie (NDP)
Talks about water advisories, some dating back several years. Cites Manitou Beach having toxic blue green algae in their lake, causing financial suffering. Related to UN world sustainable goals.
Observance of Ramadan 10:16:30
Muhammad Fiaz (SaskParty)
Announces Ramadan, talks about muslim religion.
Purple Day Supports Epilepsy Awareness 10:18:04
Vicki Mowatt (NDP)
Announces Purple Day
Z99 Radiothon for Neonatal Intensive Care Unit
Gary Grewal (SaskParty)
Talks about Z99 radiothon for neonatal care.
Saskatchewan’s Record Population Growth
Terry Jenson (SaskParty)
Talks about population growth in the province. Takes credit for the work done. Brings up NDP in 2006 when the population was shrinking.
\NOTE also with the lowest retention rate of migrants, and the highest outmigration of the province.*
Responses to Provincial Budget 10:22:33
Ken Francis (SaskParty)
Talks about the budget yesterday and how great it is. Notable, the U of R president was happy and said it was as expected.
\NOTE: They are in talks with University of Regina Faculty Assoc about cuts. Their president was in the Leg Mar 9 saying the exact opposite, and the minister said he was meeting with her after the session.*
QUESTION PERIOD
Provincial Budget 10:24:04
Carla Beck, Trent Wotherspoon, Vikci Mowatt (NDP) vs Scott Moe, Don Morgan, Donna Harpauer, Paul Merriman (SaskParty)
Cites a recent poll that 55% of Saskatchewan people are worse off this year than last, asks how the premier can fail to deliver any relief to struggling families. Has a $2B windfall and only gave tax increases, citing PST increases and the expansion on where it’s charged.
Moe says he is proud of the budget, and it resembles growth “that works for everyone”. (He cites increases in funding, but they’re all near or under inflation, I didn’t fact check any, but at those numbers they can’t be increases). One of the items he is proud of is the $1 a day increase for SAID recipients. He then attacks the NDP for a 9% PST.
\Note: anyone new to the province or to politics, the Grant Devine PC government that was the predecessor to the Saskparty nearly bankrupt the province which ended up in them being voted out, and a few members criminally charged.*
Affordability and Cost of Living
Trent Wotherspoon (NDP) vs Don Morgan, Donna Harpauer (SaskParty)
Wotherspoon says that families and small business are struggling with a once in a generation crisis, and the government is doing nothing but tax and rate hikes. Morgan calls the NDP irresponsible, has no credibility, and is standing with their leaders Jagmeet and Trudeau who are tripling the carbon tax.
Wotherspoon mentions again that he is criticising the federal government, and again calls for PST hike rollbacks. Harpauer claims we are the cheapest province to live in and defends the budget saying that they have increased in many areas where the increase doesn’t meet the cost of inflation.
\Note: Jagmeet and Trudeau are in fact not the bosses of the provincial NDP. The carbon tax rebate increases with the cost.*
Support for Health Care
Vicki Mowatt (NDP) vs Paul Merriman (SaskParty)
Mowatt says that hospitals are near collapse, cites SUN president in regards to the issues, and asks Merriman to address. Merriman cites some dollar figures and the number of workers coming in (the provincial auditor has ruled that these are not enough positions). He passes this all as success. Mowatt calls his answer shameful, nothing to cover family doctors, no new supports for costs, team based care, or problems with the current model, and accuses them of giving up. Merriman says that they are looking at future solutions. Mowatt says that doctors have told her the new doctor compensation doesn’t work, and doctors are leaving the province as a result. Merriman says he rejects the question, while the NDP heckled, I couldn’t make out what they said, he says the NDP is running down health care workers (which is clearly not true) if you listen to the entire exchange.
Funding for Education
Matt Love (NDP) vs Dustin Duncan (SaskParty)
Quotes president of Sask Schoolboard Association who call this budget falling short, investment that is needed, doesn’t even cover their inflationary expenses. Quotes Sask Teachers Federation president.
Duncan cites the numbers in the budget, defends it, compares it to $1.94B more than the NDP earmarked, then accuses the NDP of being against the education workers.
\NOTE: The last NDP budget ended in 2008, and didn’t have P3 schools to pay for - this is a poor comparison, and doesn’t include the per student cost or outcomes of education - all of which are worse.*
Tax Rates and Provincial Budget
Nadine Wilson (Independant) vs Donna Harpauer
Says the province is citing a huge surplus, asks why the province didn’t decrease taxes on the people in the province. Accuses the province of taking credit for the surplus, but it’s from increased taxes and resource prices. She says they are profiting on the plight of the people, and calls for them to even reduce the PST 1%.
Harpauer cites natural resources being high right now and volatile. She then says that she is copying the NDP cut and pasting their talking points. She then says that she doesn’t know what to say, then says it’s an indication of a strong and resilient economy. I don’t understand the position, her two ideas seem to conflict.
\NOTE: Volatile natural resources are the basis of crown corps that bring revenue to the province, like Liquor Board stores for example.*
POINTS OF ORDER
First point of order was the speaker talking about Conway’s petition earlier, and info is in that section.
Jeremy Harrison (SaskParty) vs Nicole Sarauer 10:50:22
Says that Wotherspoon called finance minister as boned-headed. As asks him to stand, withdrawal and apologise. He cites a 2017 Hansard decision.
Sarauer says that he called the tax bone-headed, not the minister. The Speaker will review the record.
ORDERS OF THE DAY
MOTION FOR APPROVAL OF BUDGETARY POLICY (BUDGET DEBATE) 10:52:00
Trent Wotherspoon (NDP)
Wothespoon calls the budget out of touch, a government flush with cash who isn’t helping the challenges that people and business are facing. Goes on to call them disrespectful to the health care sector, doctors, teachers, education.
Cites closed hospitals, long wait times in ERs, people can’t get family doctors, addictions problems.
Attacks that they threw in the towel on equalisation, and calls it a fight that shouldn’t be let down.
Talks about internet access in rural and remote areas asking them to make it a priority and scrap the increasing dividend from Sasktel.
Cites producers being left out of proper compensation rights. Mentions that they delayed despite the NDP and federal government pushing.
Beef herds are in decline and products are being imported while families are losing herds that have generational lineage.
Calls for investigations into meat plants and their anti competitive practices.
Calls for work on the carbon tax to stop the burden on agriculture, and the NDP wants them to exempt grain drying and compensation for being stuarts of the land.
Ends in thanking the people and the workers of the wonderful province, and encourages everyone to work towards a bright future, and being squandered by the government.
Reverts to the previous complaint about the use of boneheaded, and agrees to retract it, and replace with the following: does not approve the budgetary policy of the government because it fails to provide cost-of-living relief for families, fails to make needed investments in health care and education; and further, that the Assembly has lost confidence in the government.
Lori Carr (SaskParty) calls for point of order 11:13:26. Says that Wotherspon referred to the minister of trade and export development the minister of jobs. Wotherspoon stands up, says he’s perplexed but apologises.
Vicki Mowatt (NDP)
Talks about smugness in the house when talking about important issues in our community, and even towards guests that were in the room. She says people are noticing and they need to do better. She cites conversation with people in her riding worried about loosing their homes, and there’s no relief from the province in sight. Talks about hospitals being closed, some on bypass with only a note on the door that it’s closed, a baby being born on the side of the highway. And no real meaningful plan. She says that their constituents are calling the NDP offices as well, so she doesn’t know how they can continue with 32 new taxes and fees.
Premier has worst jobs record in the country, he’s flush with cash from potash and oil prices due to the war, and still no relief. 20% of Sask kids are living in poverty, and they have pet projects like the Sask Marshalls, Sask Revenue Agency and the finance minister fires up the jet to go for lunch.
Cites the health system near collapse, and the auditor has told them they are 1000 workers short, and they call it the most ambitious plan in the country in a display of arrogance.
Calls for health care support. The doctors are being forced to be business owners when they just want to provide care. The nurse practitioners asked for a ‘grow your own’ to let them work in the area that they live in, the government won’t address them. Said that the Regina General being closed was referred to as business as usual, ebbs and flows of the service while ignore solutions being provided by health care providers.
She talks about meeting requests like the one in Delisle where the providers asked them to all come, but the saskparty doesn’t show up and listen. Instead he says he meets people on the way home that he talks to (this is true, it happened several times this month in fact.)
Cites headlines about investment into mental health and addictions while those issues soar in our province without significant targeted investment or speaking to the professionals.
Socials services benefits haven’t increase in 8 years, and now they’re given a dollar a day. The Saskparty heckled her at this point. She cites it’s offloading the costs to municipalities and creating more homelessness and claw back benefits.
Says we have the worst job record in the country, but the Saskparty brags about those numbers. Their economy ranked last with a GDP shrinkage (we were the only province that experienced that, citations in earlier synopsis;) And being made worse by putting PST on construction.
Worst retention of people in the province (citations in previous dates as well, statcan has all this data).
Schools are organising bottle drives to continue, and the increases don’t even meet their previous needs let alone inflation. The Saskparty heckled this.
Fights that the budget doesn’t have targets or timelines.
11:36:54 Speaker rules on ‘boneheaded’ comment, tells Wotherspoon to withdrawal and apologise, then asks the Saskparty if they don’t have anything better to do than points of order.
Ken Frnacis (SaskParty) 11:37:28
Opens up with a joke that the NDP obviously hasn’t taken a tony robbins positivity course latley. Praises the minister of finance. Makes more jokes about the ‘longest serving opposition member’ was feeling very empowered by the crowd (referring to Wotherspoon). Says no wonder the confidence was redlining because of the support of the media. Goes on to make more jokes. Says that the NDP is by extension talking down the people of Saskatchewan, make some bad jokes about socialism and he feels bad for them. Cites eye rolling of the crowd at Wotherspoons tone about crissi after crisis every day (he is referring to a speech about cost of living crisis and hospital closures), and the tone will be better from the Saskparty side. He says that they will get their feedback at the polls, then there is shouting and an interruption.
From the verbatim @ time stamp 11:43:25: This is shocking
The Speaker :
Like, really. You know, I caution the member. Some kind of threatening gesture? Give me a break. I mean, come on. This is where it gets back and forth where it’s unacceptable. The pointing, you know, I mean, please. Please refrain from those types of things. Come on. AnThe Speaker: — Like, really. You know, I caution the member. Some kind of threatening gesture? Give me a break. I mean, come on. This is where it gets back and forth where it’s unacceptable. The pointing, you know, I mean, please. Please refrain from those types of things. Come on. And that’s for both sides, too.
I mean, come on. I recognize the Government House Leader. Hon. Mr. J. Harrison: — Just seeking clarification,
Mr. Speaker, on your ruling — I’m not sure if that was a ruling — on whether we can use hand gestures . . .
The Speaker: — Sorry, you’re challenging the Speaker. Do you March 23, 2023 Saskatchewan Hansard 3425 really want to go there? Do you really want to go there? Yeah, you want to go there? Okay. I want the Government House Leader to stand up, withdraw, and apologize.
I recognize the Government House Leader. Hon. Mr. J. Harrison: — I withdraw and apologize if that’s what the Speaker . . .
The Speaker: — Sit down. I recognize the member from Kindersley. d that’s for both sides, too. I mean, come on.
Ken Francis continues.. Attacks them saying it’s all fear and smear just like their federal ndp liberal coalition, a negativity vortex. Says that the statistics show that they’re doing well, and the NDP is saying they will make cuts but they won’t (where’s the liquor board store Ken?).
Goes on to call rural Sask the spinal cord of the provincial economy, excited for the future, agribusiness is working hard to fight the federal government on a new deal. Goes on to cite all the massive 10%+ increases in those areas, oil and gas potash, etc. and how their 9 trade offices (the ones Harper runs globally) are bringing more revenue. He says that teh biggest threat is environmental policies from the federal gov that the NDP are backing (they aren’t… they said that several times in this sitting alone).
Goes on to talk about socialism, protectionism, a bunch of arguments that aren’t even valid. I won’t waste my time synopsis of the rest of this speech, look it up if you care to hear what he says.
Scott Moe (SaskParty) 12:00:15
Talks about paying down deficit, the pandemic cost us $1B he says even after a generational drought which he calls sustainable investments. He claims second lowest debt to gdp in the nation. He praises the budget and keeps calling it sustainable - he doesn’t want to fire nurses and doctors because of resource revenue fluctuations. Goes on to say that he’s bringing in 1000 physicians etc etc.. these are all future state items that I can’t fact check. He relates a lot of these items against 2007 when the NDP was in power. Goes on to justify the pet projects lie the Marshall Service. I stopped recording it all because he isn’t providing data, he’s just making claims without citation of any kind, and most it things they are doing in the future.
Marv Friesen (SaskParty) 12:39:31
Praises the budget for no new taxes. Cites disagreement in the room debating in the treasury board and committee meetings, which he thinks is important to get the best decisions and outcomes. Critical of the NDP calling them tired and out of touch, and says he is tired because he’s in touch with his riding.
This will be archived on SaskPoli\**. I am open to linking missed or relevant factual information provided, as well as correcting inaccuracies.**\**

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I now have 3 months of notice period where I will have quite a bit of down time which I can use to learn the language. Are there any paid or free only resources I can use to quicky catch up on my Business German skills? Other than that, do you have any other tips for me to improve my language in a really short time?
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Throughout my career, I have never had a smooth onboarding experience. HR people are always being slow and dumb with getting my bloodwork done and managers never have me set up for my technology. Sometimes I don't even get a laptop until after one week. Honestly, after one week, I already feel frustrated with everyone and started to hate my job. Why can't people just be more organized and competent when it comes to onboarding people? SERIOUSLY!
EDIT: I work in healthcare, so bloodwork is needed to be done. HR sends me to clinics to get bloodwork done, but they would only send me to do one thing then another one the next day when everything could be done altogether.

So, I had a boo boo on my finger. 2 days later I close said finger in the door. Day 3 morning, finger really swollen, soak it in epsom salt then ice it, rinse repeat x2. Dinner time Hmmmm, thinking maybe I done broke it, clinic is closed, senior shuttle runs I’ll call first thing for appt. 10:30pm finger, imagine a fine claret in the profile of a raw shrimp. Then, if you will, try to imagine your thoughts and feelings when you awake from your blissful Indica pain reliever nap. For me the first, having osteoporosis, need not be listed it’s understood. Second thought, get second opinion. Wrap ice pac on finger, walk to landlady with my dog who is whining and extremely anxious , “hey, remember when I told you I closed the door on my finger?? I think I broke it” she replied “need to borrow the car” I replied, I don’t think I can, she asks to see, texts son to get hind end over and take me ( at the minute they have 1 car both work…) Grab wallet, e-cig, phone, book. 11pm leave for ER 12am arrive at ER see the reception chick, sit wait. Yay my name!!!!!! Get x-ray YAY!!! Dr Doom pronounces a severely infected finger that will probably require a hand surgeon nothing broken, have to be admitted until transfer another 1-1/2 hrs away. Old lady places hand on hip and calmly replies “oh hell to the not” drain it, give me antibiotics and say bye mam.. nope have to use “3rd world medicine” because penicillin reaction. Damn. Asked nurse to get my ride. Ask please take care of my boy, check cats water. Get to room, start antibacterial drips, 3 total, read book start page 4. 9am PA from ortho look at finger, leaves for supplies, numbs finger ( no high before or after 1967 was that intense) drains abscess….say, you remember when I said I had a boo boo, damn that sliver was so small, but closing the door on it drove it deep.
They let me out this morning 11am. Landlady’s son picks me up, we get to the car I get my e-cig out look at it and say “Damn, If I thought they would do that to me, I would have brought my pen I’ve been sneaking since they plugged me in. This sucks with lips like Jagger” This 30yr old; goatee sporting, Mohawk wearing, tattooed, classic Stang driving, stand up man pulls my pen from the pocket of his leather vest and tells me I. I taught him Stoners have each other’s backs.
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I work some pretty crazy hours (law firm life) but over the last few months got a serious wave of burnout and sense of dread at work. Crying occasionally, etc. It didn't go away within a week like people said it would so about a month ago I started researching online psych services. My friend at a notoriously demanding firm said her weekly therapist visit is a life saver, but she is also on meds (benzos) for anxiety. I started thinking that might be a good idea, at least to maybe address burnout.
I started getting sponsored ads for "done" and almost convinced myself I might have ADHD since I've been having trouble focusing (though, usually I am extremely focused if I'm actually interested in something), and the psych there said I have symptoms of ADHD but that it was too soon to prescribe meds and to come back in 3 months.
I didn't want to wait 3 months to begin treatment and also wanted a second opinion so I signed up for talkiatry. After an hour consult asking mostly questions about OCD (and none about ADHD) the guy decided I had anxiety (this seems ok) and possibly OCD and immediately prescribed Zoloft, which I had never imagined myself taking. I even told him I was hesitant to try an SSRI since I had never taken an everyday medication but he said he'd send it over to my pharmacy and then I could make a decision. Also, you would think something called "talk"iatry would offer talk therapy but the psych seemed mostly concerned with prescribing meds and checking in in a month to see how they are going, which I mean great I guess since meds probably help a lot of people.
Idk. I am a high performer at work and I'm nervous this will make me worse. I'm starting a new job in a few weeks and I strongly suspect that quitting my current firm and starting the new one will help with everything I've been experiencing, but it would also suck to start on the wrong foot and not be motivated there, as well. And, if I'm going to experience some crazy side effects, now would be the best time.
I took the first pill yesterday thinking "why not just try" and today I am extremely groggy and have a bit of a headache and I'm just starting to second guess everything
TL;DR: on the fence about these meds/online psych consults

I'm an adult only child with a father who is divorced and has no other family to take care of his affairs besides me. He is only in his early 50's so we never discussed anything about his wishes aside for some very basic stuff about if he were to ever die. He currently resides in Ohio but I live in a different state so most of my assistance has been remote aside from when I went to see him when he initially got sick a couple of months ago
My father has been a type-1 diabetic his entire life. Due to mismanaging it as a younger adult, he lost most of his sight as is currently considered legally blind. A recent stroke also has left him with no hearing. Despite this, he was still able to work in an office and receive an income. He went into a sudden diabetic coma a couple of months ago (possibly from mismanaging his diabetes again) and had to be admitted into a hospital. He has since recovered from the coma but is in a seemingly permanent, confused, and dementia-like state where he cannot understand much and constantly tries to take out his IV/Hospital stuff.
He is currently on extended sick leave at work but that will be coming to an end in a couple weeks when they plan on terminating his employment, leaving him with no insurance. My dad is not well off and has a bit of debt but has been able to survive fine on his own with his job. He will be in a nursing home for the foreseeable future which will need to be paid for somehow. Currently, he is still at the hospital but they are looking to move him into a nursing home as soon a possible.
My goal for the last couple of month has been to ensure a safe transition from him working to being on Medicaid/Disability but have ran into countless roadblocks that prevent me from doing much of anything. As we hadn't discussed much about something bad happening to him, he didn't appoint a Power of Attorney. Though I am his son, I've found that I cannot legally retrieve any information about his finances which I need in order to sign him up for Medicaid.
As is, he is not in a mental state to sign over POA to me and it seems the only other option is appointing myself (or someone else) as guardian over him. What little I have seen about guardianships/conservatorships tells me that it isn't something my wife and I would be willing to undertake.
My main questions:

What can I do to get him signed up with Medicaid without POA?
Is there a third party that the court could appoint to be his guardian to assist with getting his affairs in order?
What responsibilities are required of a guardian if I am truly the only one able to help him?
Who is responsible for his unpaid medical bills if he or his insurance cannot pay them? I have researched filial responsibility laws in Ohio, which seem to state I would be responsible but I haven't seen any cases where this law has been enforced.

Overall, I'm looking for advice on how I should handle this situation as I have no clue what to do next to help him. Please let me know if this post is better suited in another community.

Enough said.. Nothing it working to manage it enough so that I can work my office job without being distracted from the pain. What do you do at this point ? Pain clinics are refusing me because ''I dont fit their criteria''. I see my family doctor tomorrow to see what we can do. But she is beginning to be clueless about what to do now.
-on Pregabalin, Naproxen, Amitriptyline, Citalopram, Methocarbamol, acetaminophen, Tramadol
-I failed Duloxetine, Tylenol doesnt work enough on it's own, ibuprofen does jack shit, My meds Im on right now are barely helping but I know it's worst when I don't have them.
-I do hot showers, heating packs, Ice, Pain creams, Pain patches OTC, TENS machine, Physiotherapy, try to stretch here and there, limit my stress, get plenty of rest and hydration, I have some braces when I need it and use mobility aid as needed, try to limit overdoing it in the days etc. Nothing. is. working.

Im only 20, I dont want to live forever this way... This pain is just worsening but no one wants to help me.

Hi everyone! I just completed my first egg freezing cycle. For reference, I'm 33. At my consultation in February I had 23 follicles and AMH 2.82. I've been on birth control for many years and stopped the pill three days before the cycle started. I mentioned that I had read that being on BC for that long can suppress you, but my RE said since my FSH was normal (just under 9) that I wasn't suppressed. A month later when I started, baseline monitoring showed 13 follicles. My follicles seemed to grow fairly unevenly - when I triggered, I had 2 follicles 11-13 range, 6 follicles 14-19 range, and 4 follicles over 20, which I think were expected to be overmature. My E2 the morning after the first trigger shot (Lupron) was 1670, which seemed pretty low to me, and I was expecting a low count result. I somehow got 15 retrieved, 12 mature, which I was happily surprised by. However, during this time I was reading a lot about estrogen priming, and thought it would be a good idea for the next cycle to get a higher count (since I'm freezing, I of course want as many as possible).
I had a call with my RE yesterday and she essentially said estrogen priming is not something she really does and doesn't think it makes a difference, but if I want to do it we can. I have some DOTTI patches already (which deliver .1mg/day), so I asked her if those would be appropriate, and she said I could use any kind of estrogen. When I followed up with the nurse, she said they don't usually use patches and I would do 2mg of Estrace twice a day (I assume this is based on other REs that she works with, since mine doesn't "do" priming.) 2 mg of Estrace twice per day and the DOTTI .1 mg/day seem like a huge variance. Since my RE's general attitude is that she's happy to do what I want but doesn't really have a further opinion, now I'm a bit confused and feel like I need to do my own research before going back to the nurse/RE. Any thoughts/experience with estrogen priming protocols would be appreciated!
Thanks!

This is my first contract. I’m a public health professional, not nurse. I’m an infection Preventionist. My recruiter went her way out to the hiring manager to talk to me, which eventually landed me the job. Infection Preventionist are not just nurses, but public health people, too.
Anyway, I shipped my car, paid my rent, and will be flying out tomorrow. However, my blood work is not done due to my incompetent onboarding person. She keeps sending me to do one thing at a time in a different location. At this point, I’m frustrated. She called me today saying that I will have to push my start date. I’m angry because I do not want to pay more for housing due to their incompetence. What should I do?

I’ve been working medsurg (first at full time, then at 24 hrs/weekend part time) for a year and just got an interview for my dream CNA job (PRN in a CVICU).
What are some good questions to ask an interviewer? Is there anything special to ask about PRN or about ICU?
Background on me: it’s the same hospital I worked in and did my clinicals in, I’m a full time college student and hopefully a full time nursing student starting in September, I want to be an ICU nurse or do rapid response.

I was hired at a company in July 2022. I was approached about the job by a man who had become a professional friend (never met him in person, only talked business), we'll call him Gary. When I interviewed, his Chief of Staff, Linda also interviewed me. We got along. I interviewed with other senior leadership and got the offer.
They initially approached me about a consultant role to work with their clients, but during the interview process realized I knew a lot about growth and business development and they pitched the idea of me spending 50% of my time working on company growth and 50% of the time working with clients.
After I started, Linda was promoted to VP of the consultants despite having no experience as a consultant and very limited experience in the industry we work. Quickly she became threatened by the fact that the team wouldn't go to her for client advice and go around her to Gary. And she also got very annoyed that I worked directly with Gary on growth and business development.
Eventually, it became clear she had started a rumor that Gary and I had an "inappropriate" relationship. It became so bad that the head of HR confronted Gary about it, they yanked me off growth and business development, and it became a known thing that all of leadership had an issue with me.
Eventually, Linda was moved laterally to a totally different department, but I'm still treated like a pariah. And Gary struggles to communicate with me as my boss...for example, bonuses were just allocated, mine was much lower than expected (Gary told me that was leadership's decision) and Gary didn't even communicate it to me, or send me the official letters about my bonus so I had to see it in my bank account and reach out. I am the only one on the team to whom he did not communicate.
Frankly, I want out, but I want to leave with a severance. What recourse do I have?
It's well known that Linda and leadership have an issue with me, but there's probably nothing in writing. But lots of people know about it.
What if I could claim that Gary DID try something with me? I wouldn't want to go there because I wouldn't want my life examined closely, but I also feel like they'd want to keep that quiet.
What's your advice for all of this?

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Looking for some new grad nurse job search advice please!
What is the St Joseph Hospital in Denver like? Specifically Medicine North.

I had a casino call me for a job interview and when I went in HR told me that the position had already been filled. So I wasted my time and gas to come in for an interview for a position that they didn’t interview all of the candidates for.
I had a nursing home contact me on indeed two hours after I submitted my application asking if I was still interested and wanted to discuss next steps, and I never heard back. I called today and they said that they filled the position.
I know these are only two of the however many jobs I’ve applied to, but both places contacted me and filled the position before I even got a chance to interview for it and it’s just depressing.

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Hello all. My bf (22m) and me (21nb). Live together in a 3 bedroom condo in Seattle. I an a nurse. He is a software developer. He recently graduated from college with his degree (December). He had a contract job in January for about half the month. Other then in January he hasn't had a job. In a few days it will be 2 months with me being the only person working. I understand software development jobs are hard to find right now but I am struggling with the pressure of the only person bringing in money.
Per him he spends every day working on his resume, working on random projects, cleaning the house, and applying to jobs. I feel like he isn't doing that much to get a job.
His resume has been an ongoing project for 2 months now. His random projects he usually only works on 1-2 days a week. I have been asking him about his job search and he hasn't done anything towards that this week. He refuses to call the jobs to follow up on his application, and he barely applies to any jobs
He is constantly telling me that i am pushing him. I am trying really hard not to but it'd been 2 months. Almost anytime I bring it up he says I'm pushing and that it isn't helping.
I am so frustrated because I feel like he is doing nothing. I know he spends around 2 hours a day playing video games. I know that he needs breaks while trying to find a job but I also feel like his day is 90% breaks.
Idk what to do. Any advice on what I can do to help him with finding a job or even look for jobs. I am so frustrated and I dont know what else to do.